DD #59

What's up!

I am clear. False alarm. Dem alarm bells not ringing no more! God you the man. I love you man.

No problem y'all 'cept for my damn paranoia!

DD #58

I've just mad an appointment for 4:50 so I'm gonna have a shower n get ready. Wish me luck.

Ang is up hospital in labour.

Rite, l8r.

DD #57

I am really worried.

Either I am really really paranoid or I have a magnet for health problems. I am practically convinced, yet again, that I have testicular cancer. I've got a pea sized slightly painful lump on my left testicle. I've known it was there for a while but I'm pretty sure I had it back when I had my operation so if it was cancer, I'm sure they would've noticed it back then. However I can't help but feel slightly worried.

I'm going to the Dr's just to be on the safe side though I am convinced it'll be cancer and it'll have spread and I'll die. If I do then I'm really sorry and I love all my family so much, more than I can ever say. I would miss everyone so much and I can't bear to think of life without them. I'm so worried and God if you exist and you're up there please don't let me die or have testicular cancer. I will change my ways.

P.S. If I die and any of my family read this: I love you and will love you forever. All of you.

P.P.S. If I don't die and you read this: I know I will never live this down but right now I'm so worried. I've never been so worried. I can't tell any of you directly, I don't want to get you worried with Jamie on his way so soon.