DD #56

 I ain't wrote 4 a long time cuz I bin busy.

I got tests next week but I ain't worried at all cuz I don't care if I don't do well - so wot. I ain't ever revised, so why bother now? Tez n Y11 leave in a week n I may never c most of 'em agen. I'll miss some of them but not most of them. Steph is on the missing side. I'll possibly never see her again - cuz she's moving/moved house to Longton. At least I got the photo's still.

I've had some CD's made down Webbys with gr8 tunes on.

Also I've been c Claire + Jordan alot, and Ashley and Tim + Alan cuz it's ages since I'd seen them. They're all okay + they've had a dog now called Dolly. Hopefully I'm having a PS2 4 Christmas, Claire says she may buy me n T one for our birthday/Christmas present if she can get one cheap.

I'm missing Steph real bad. I tricked myself into thinking I was over her but seeing her yesterday just threw me back to thinking that she is fine. I can't help but remember the times we've shared. I think she is beautiful regardless of what others think. I wish so hard that it could've worked out between us. I think if we'd both put in a bit more effort it could've worked and we could still be together but 4 some reason I think Steph ain't really the "committing" type of girl. I don't see her committing to a relationship - she's too outgoing + spontaneous. I'm debating whether or not to txt her + tell her how I feel but I'm tending to swing towards the don't bother side becuz I don't no if she's single and also because I don't think she's ready to really commit to a long lasting relationship, not yet anyway. I hoped I could just leave it and remember the good times but thinking about her leaving and me maybe never seeing her again is killing me inside.