Saturday, 30 November 2013

Monthly Musings: November 2013

An overview of opinions and observations for the month.

01/11/2013 @00:40
I'm just 44 PS3 trophies off 1500, but I better be going to bed. I tend to overlook the fact that although I'm only working until lunchtime on a half day shift, I still need to get up in the morning at a reasonable hour!

01/11/2013 @14:12
I appreciate this will sound absolutely crazy to some of you, but complaining about the weather won't actually change it. I'm sorry to shatter the illusion.

01/11/2013 @22:05
7hrs later, I may have a headache, but the credits are rolling and Bioshock 2 is complete.
[feeling accomplished]

02/11/2013 @00:23
You were out my grasp faster,
than my eyes could even see the fractures.

02/11/2013 @09:16
Daddy time!
[feeling excited]

02/11/2013 @13:04
My lil girl is sharing & feeding me Wotsits! #adorable
[feeling loved]

02/11/2013 @16:59
I bet Begovic isn't whinging about how windy it is...

03/11/2013 @00:28
Bloody toe'ing hell! When fun turns rough :/

03/11/2013 @17:21
"What's some things that make you happy, keep you going in life?"
"Cake."

#KarlPilkington

03/11/2013 @17:49
A photo is a window to a memory.
[feeling nostalgic]

03/11/2013 @21:21
Look in our daughters eyes, and just try to imagine,
never seeing her again after all that has happened.../
We're both part of her atoms perfect DNA pattern,
if either of us were absent the fragments wouldn't be balanced.../
Our Princess wouldn't be present, you know that much is apparent.../
So I can't hate you... even if you make life a challenge.

03/11/2013 @23:25
My latest track is an honest song from the heart about the situation with the Mother of my child. We've had our differences and a hell of a lot of water has passed under burned bridges, but deep down the situation still hurts me. The events that unfolded over time served to only worsen the confusion, and to this day I still genuinely have no idea where it all went wrong, or what caused the mess I'm left with today. Life is too short, and I try to be amicable at every opportunity, but there seems to be an overwhelming necessity in my ex's life to be awkward, and to make my time with Ilysha as uncomfortable as possible. I've been justifiably angry and said things I shouldn't of at times but I can't even hate my ex when all is said and done, because without my her, I wouldn't have my beautiful Princess. I genuinely mean it when I say I want nothing but the best for her, because if she is happy, then my daughter stands more chance of being happy too. I hate the tension and atmosphere between us, and I just wish she could lay the conflict to rest for our daughters sake - at the end of the day, our child is the only one who suffers as a result. But it's out of my hands, and instead I have to just make the best of a bad situation...
[http://www.reverbnation.com/anothab/song/19077187-vulnerable]

04/11/2013 @11:46
It may be a bit cold today, but I really don't mind when it's sunny... sunshine has this crazy power to make everything seem better that I cannot explain. Had a lovely weekend seeing my children, friends and family, and I'm currently sat curled up in my pyjamas watching TV with a brewski before I head off to work and I just feel calm and at peace with everything in the world. Thinking of my brother Ricky today and remembering that every day here is a blessing, so appreciate the time you have - and no matter what happens, just try to stay positive. Dum spiro spero.
[feeling positive]

04/11/2013 @18:43
The simple beauty of life is forgotten, amidst the man-made drama we create. We often overlook and take for granted the only things that truly matter, and instead invite in problems that suffocate our happiness. Stop trying so hard, and just let it be. Que sera sera.
[feeling carefree]

04/11/2013 @22:08
"Nah, you don't know me, lightning above and a fire below me.../
You cannot catch me, cannot hold me, you cannot stop, much less control me.../
When it rains, it pours, when the floodgates open, brace your shores.../
That pressure don't care when it breaks your doors, say it's all you can take,
better take some more!"

[with Christopher Downs]


04/11/2013 @23:37
I was vacuuming blocks with my mouth to get them to stay in place whilst Ilysha was grabbing them, and then she kept trying to copy me hehe :) - it's crazy how much kids replicate what they see! :') x

04/11/2013 @23:55
Ilysha sharing her wotsits with me, this continued afterwards, for every one she ate, she fed me one haha x

04/11/2013 @23:47
My attempt to get her to pretend to answer the phone how she normally does didn't work properly, but she still said "yeh-yeh" which is her way of saying "hiya" hehe :) - she loves reading her books too, well usually me reading whilst she looks at the pictures haha x

05/11/2013 @00:15
Char-char on my microphone, he was supposed to be singing (he often does) but he was a bit camera shy, love my lil' boy even if he smacks me in the face for stealing the microphone! :) x
[with Dawn Wheels Owen and Sheila Scott]

05/11/2013 @00:21
Thank you Uncle Mozzaa, as you can tell, she liked her presents :') x
[with Matthew Morris]

05/11/2013 @00:24
"As part of my upcoming home workout video for parents, this is a small clip of how to include the classic "Leg Extension" weightlifting technique whilst entertaining a small child. As you can see, both you and your child will receive the benefit from this simple and effective approach; you will get those strong quadriceps, and your child will be easily amused and happy. The choice of workout music is up to yourself, however I personally opt for the CBeebies soundtrack CD. Keep your eyes open for the full video in shops near you soon..."
[with Leigh Leigh]

05/11/2013 @00:34
I had a feeling my lil' Princess would like this when I bought it, and it does keep her attention thanks to the variety! I've learned that at 1yrs old, children's attention spans are practically none existent! And yes, that is me doing the duck impression at 40 seconds! :P x

05/11/2013 @00:46
Excuse the middle part of the video, I had a can of Rockstar energy drink that my Princess was distracted by that I was trying to hide from her haha, but she has a lovely little wiggle at the start and a beautiful little sing to the alphabet song at the end! :') x
[with Angie Scott]

05/11/2013 @00:52
I think it's time I stopped spamming everyone's newsfeed with videos of my daughter and went to bed ready for work in the morning! Huge smile on my face though, I could watch videos of my children constantly and always be happy! Love you Ilysha & Charlie ♥
[feeling blessed]

05/11/2013 @07:48
Time waits for nobody, and before you realise it today is tomorrow, and tomorrow is yesterday. So discard your troubles, embrace your potential, and carpe diem!

05/11/2013 @18:35
"Lazy little shits at home, they call Childline if you ask them to put the kettle on." - #KarlPilkington
[watching The Moaning of Life]

05/11/2013 @19:01
"Don't be thinking I've got broody from just seeing a bit of jizz whizzing about a screen. Ya'know, just cause I've got good sperm, it doesn't mean I'd be a good Dad, does it? It's two totally different things. There's loadsa people out there with driving licences but they're shit at driving." - Karl Pilkington hahaha fucking crying!
[watching The Moaning of Life]

05/11/2013 @22:21
Curled up in my PJ's on my armchair, with my sleeping bag wrapped around me, nice and cosy with the lights off...
[watching World War Z]

06/11/2013 @00:34
So warm and cosy in this sleeping bag that I think I'm going to just hop upstairs in it like I'm doing the sack race at school and jump straight into my bed. If I don't update my status in the morning then send an ambulance to my address because I've probably fallen down the stairs as a result. Wish me luck.

06/11/2013 @09:18
You can make excuses, blame this, that and circumstances... but the truth is that you're the only person capable of holding you back.

06/11/2013 @20:17
"This is it... /
It's what you eat, sleep, piss and shit!"

06/11/2013 @22:23
Intense episode! Fuck about!
[watching Sons of Anarchy]

06/11/2013 @23:27
I used to be very dismissive about politics, wilfully choosing to close my eyes. I believe that was the result of the facade presented all my life, whereby we are engineered and manipulated into turning a blind eye and not looking outside the four walls around us. How unglamorous is politics? We grow up with this picture of fat old white men with red cheeks and elegant clothing around a big table discussing issues that ultimately don't seem to affect us. That is the myth that they propagate to keep you ignorant. The truth is much different. The reality is much more important. Firstly I want to point out something most people fail to acknowledge. The media is controlled by the Government with the sole purpose of blinding the mass population from the real issues of society, where behind the mask, politicians are merely the puppet masters in a huge corrupt game of smoke and mirrors. The naive ignorant masses blindly swallow up all the celebrity gossip, trivial news reports and consumerist bullshit that ultimately serves only to preoccupy them in their small superficial worlds, meanwhile we are all exploited and controlled to profit a select minority. Instead of preoccupying yourself with mundane bollocks that is of no benefit to your living conditions or your economic status, try shutting out the distorted media that is distracting you and seek the real stories out that matter. They won't tell you on the 6 o'clock news about how fucked up the world really is behind the mask - sure they will show you about war and crime, because they know it will make you fearful and welcoming of the illusion of protection presented by a Government body. The world is being exploited and destroyed, the population enslaved by corporations who's sole purpose is to sell you shit you don't need so that they can profit from your superficial fantasies. And you parade around your mates with your new phone and expensive clothing like it makes you something special? You're just a pawn in a much bigger game who has been convinced that wasting money on frivolous non essential expenditures makes you more important than the next man of a lower economic class. The social status ladder is a bizarre man made beast where the majority compete to prove they're "better" than other people by spending money on more expensive crap and by becoming so self obsessed with their image that they pour their hard earned money back into a corrupt system engineered to profit from it. I could honestly go on about this all night, but I notice this is already reaching "essay status", and I know regretfully that the content will be overlooked by 99% of you. And it's such a shame, because you don't even realise your ignorance will be your biggest downfall, and the combined ignorance of the population will be the ultimate undoing of the entire generation. So I sit here wishfully hoping like some naive pipe dream that at least a handful of people will hear what I'm saying and open their eyes to the situation... but unfortunately, ignorance truly is bliss for many, and they'd prefer to take the blue pill than the red, and sit comfortably inside their Matrix as slaves to the system. And such is the generation in which I was raised, and my heart bleeds for the generations that follow in our wake.
[with Christopher Downs, Sean McDevitt, Sylvester Sylvester and Brittany Edelman]

07/11/2013 @09:22
This morning, my coffee is serving two purposes. Waking me up, and warming my hands.

07/11/2013 @18:38
After 4 days arguing with LAA and my Solicitor, I've finally received the response I was after... I owe nothing, but my Solicitor is a pipe and hasn't bothered filing the necessary paperwork. I'm still naive in some ways, like expecting professional companies to be capable of doing their jobs properly without requiring me to remind them how to do it. Smh.

07/11/2013 @19:14
"Lucky no permanent damage.../
Cause they hurt you so bad, it's like they murdered your ass and threw dirt on your casket.../
But you returned from the ashes.../
And that hurt that you have, you just converted to gasoline."

07/11/2013 @19:54
My life has been a crisis,
right now it might seem like the nicest.../
Look in my iris, it wasn't always like this.../
I've got priorities strangled in the tightest vice grip.../
Demons of my past I have to fight with.../
White fists might miss hits but I'll survive it.../
Reviving skeletons I buried on my night shifts.../
Confined to my memories, I'll dig them up to write this.

[feeling expressive]

07/11/2013 @21:33
Out of sight, out of mind? That's beyond me.../
Because my daughter and my son are thought of fondly.../
Even when they aren't around me.../
I never found a purpose - the purpose came and found me.../
Now at night I'm sleeping soundly.../
Speaking proudly of the blessings that surround me.

[feeling inspired]

07/11/2013 @22:55
Please take the time to listen to my latest track... over Mic Righteous' 'Fire In The Booth' beat, produced by Red Skull. Really happy with the outcome of tonight's labours!
[http://www.reverbnation.com/anothab/song/19117168-resilient]

08/11/2013 @15:07
Washer on...
[watching New Girl]

08/11/2013 @15:29
Dishes washed...
[watching Arrow]

08/11/2013 @16:00
6hrs sleep done...
[travelling to Pure Gym]

08/11/2013 @16:01
Gym done...
[travelling to Connect Insurance]

08/11/2013 @16:02
Work done...

08/11/2013 @16:15
Hoovering done...
[watching Revolution]

08/11/2013 @17:39
Tea cooked...
[watching The Big Bang Theory]

08/11/2013 @18:19
Lounge tidied...
[watching We're the Millers]

08/11/2013 @20:31
Shopping done...
[watching Logan]

08/11/2013 @23:55
Day done...

09/11/2013 @09:15
On the way pick up my Princess :) x

10/11/2013 @01:16
It's definitely not about having a dead phone battery!

10/11/2013 @11:01
"Dulce et Decorum est pro patria mori."

10/11/2013 @12:53
If you didn't listen the other day when I shared it, find the time now :) - my latest track produced by Red Skull... thanks for the support!
[http://www.reverbnation.com/anothab/song/19117168-resilient]

10/11/2013 @13:02
"All we have is each other in the end.../
Keep in contact with your brothers and your friends."


10/11/2013 @14:10
"Night gets darkest right before dawn.../
What don't kill you makes you more strong."

10/11/2013 @14:24
We are ignorant as a species, as humans. We are driven by our fears, our insecurities; we allow our curiosity to guide us blindly into the unwavering darkness knowingly against our better judgement. We continually convince ourselves that something wrong is right, that something bad is good, that our flaws are the fault of somebody other than ourselves. We blame media; the films, the music, the computer games, even religion. We find scapegoats at every turn to justify our own atrocities and misjudgements. We ignorantly repeat our lies into the mirror of our subconscious until we believe them all wholeheartedly, until we convince ourselves that we are not to blame.

10/11/2013 @18:51
I predict an early night today... wonderful time with my beautiful daughter yesterday, then an awesome night with some top class mates, and a brilliant day with my handsome Godson this afternoon... and I'm up for the gym at half 6 tomorrow morning... weekends go too fast, but it's definitely worth it when you enjoy every minute of them.
[feeling content]

10/11/2013 @21:08
Proof that kids pick up on what you show them haha, I always do this cause it makes my lil' girl laugh, guess it was time she returned the favour?! :L x

10/11/2013 @21:10
Put your toys away llysha :') x

10/11/2013 @21:13
My lil' Princess is getting so good at sharing :') - growing so quickly, it's amazing seeing her learning new things constantly x

10/11/2013 @21:28
It's crazy that my little Princess is eating proper meals, fishfingers and chips haha - she loves fishfingers! She isn't very well at the moment, laid up and got a sore throat, hence the bottle rather than her usual tippy cup - she has a tendency to tip way too much in her mouth and make herself cough! x

10/11/2013 @21:33
A casual bit of newsfeed spamming with pics and videos of Ilysha & Charlie from this weekend hehe
[watching Elysium]

10/11/2013 @22:14
Room full of toys, and my daughter chooses to look at books haha :') - and yes, there is plenty of me singing along during this video, cause it makes my Ilysha smile so shushhh :P x

10/11/2013 @22:31
Charlie decided to smash our den up... it's not unusual! :P x

10/11/2013 @22:33
At Ily's age, all you need to keep her amused is flashing lights and music :) hehe x

10/11/2013 @22:33
Then Charlie decided he smash me up... again, not unusual! x

10/11/2013 @22:35
Charlie decides to tear off his top and really embody the very essence of being the Hulk... only it doesn't go as smoothly as expected! haha x

10/11/2013 @22:37
After embodying a somewhat skinny Hulk, Charlie comes to deliver the final smash and finish me off! x

11/11/2013 @08:26
I've got up and been the gym and I'm not in work until 1... so I may just go back bed for an hour or so!

11/11/2013 @08:35
Really looking forward to the new Hobbit film.
[with Terry Scott]


11/11/2013 @10:11
Well impressed with this! The artwork is fantastic, and the message too!
[http://moonheadpress.blogspot.co.uk/2013/11/the-deal.html]


11/11/2013 @11:01
We shall remember them.

11/11/2013 @12:17
Right, I'm definitely awake now... off to work I go! I'll just leave this here for your appreciation ;)


11/11/2013 @20:11
[watching Homeland]

11/11/2013 @23:53
I remember a time when I rarely slept because I saw it as a complete waste of time... I still believe there are so much more productive things I could be doing, but fuck me this bed is amazing... I'm gonna starfish the fuck out of this tonight!
[feeling relaxed]

12/11/2013 @09:13
You can't control how other people act, but you can control how you react to it. Brush that drama aside and keep smiling, time is too valuable to spend it so wastefully.
[feeling wonderful]

12/11/2013 @17:30
"Gold is tried in the fire, and acceptable men in the furnace of adversity." - Ecclesiasticus 2:5

12/11/2013 @18:32
If you've never taken the time to listen to my music, find time and show me some love!
[http://www.reverbnation.com/anothab/song/19117168-resilient]

12/11/2013 @18:43
Really rate this youth, his track "Cuts" is sick as fuck, another great drop here too. @Jamie Broad Music

12/11/2013 @20:25
Mindy is adorable, behind the mask she is such a cute girl!
[watching Kick-Ass 2]

12/11/2013 @22:02
My photo of the day is the fact I've had a shave. Yes, that really is a testament to just how exciting today has actually been.

12/11/2013 @23:08
Love is like a car journey... You're driving down the road with the person you love the most, calm, tranquil with not a care in the world. You're enjoying the scenery, their company, the music playing on the stereo, the cool breeze coming through the window as the hot sun beams down from a glorious blue sky. You'e happy, truly at peace with the world and everything in it; you may even go as far as to say you feel invincible like nothing could ever bring you down. Suddenly from nowhere, the car is veering off the road and down a rocky embankment - you're under a canopy of trees now masked off from the beautiful sunlight, the music has stopped and there's a haunting silence broken only by the screeching of brakes and the sound of shearing metal as the car overturns and barrel rolls through the undergrowth and when it finally comes to a stop, it's smashed hard against a large tree. You're confused, lost, scared and hurting. Everything seems wrong. Nothing makes sense. You climb out the car, you gradually make your way back out of the darkness and your wounds slowly but surely heal over time. You buy a new car, and you drive down the same road, listening to the same music on any sunny day you choose. But never again are you as carefree, as happy or as peaceful as you were the first time. Because from now on, every time you're in that situation, you're worrying about veering back off the road. You're worried about something going wrong. You're worried about having to go through that terrifying ordeal all over again. And that is love. Once the illusion of perfection is shattered, it can never be expected again. Love is like a car journey, and that's why I walk alone instead. [feeling cynical]

13/11/2013 @09:18
The best thing about the past is that it's over, so just focus on moving forward towards better times instead of dwelling on things you cannot change. Face today with a smile and a spring in your step - you're beautiful.
[feeling complete]

13/11/2013 @14:20
School run to fetch my lil Charlie bear, any single mummies about?
[feeling cheeky]

13/11/2013 @20:08
One of most adorable and heartbreaking moments of my life...
[feeling loved]

14/11/2013 @01:34
Any real gamer knows that you can't just "leave it until tomorrow" when you're really close to completing a single player campaign... gonna be a tired boy tomorrow, but on a lighter note, completed Bulletstorm, and earned my 1500th PSN trophy!
[feeling accomplished]

14/11/2013 @08:49
Show me your smiley faces all you beautiful people! Life is always more positive when you face it with optimism and happiness!
[feeling smiley]

14/11/2013 @18:43
Whatever your worries are, I'm confident that most won't even matter in the long term, maybe not even by tomorrow.... so learn to accept the imperfections in your life, embrace them for the lessons that they are, and use them to better yourself. Every half empty glass, is also half full - it's all about perspective. Pessimism is an emotion, not a philosophy.
[feeling wonderful]

14/11/2013 @19:55
"God only knows what I'd be without you..."

14/11/2013 @21:43
You know life is tough when the hardest thing you've been faced with recently is deciding which PS3 game to play next...
[feeling indecisive]

14/11/2013 @22:36
This is a video definition of "Ragequit". Wow.


14/11/2013 @23:33
Hahahaha what?!!

15/11/2013 @08:46
I don't stop when I'm tired, I stop when I've achieved victory.

15/11/2013 @14:04
It's Friday afternoon, so you know what that means... out of paid work, and home to do the housework haha. #domesticated

15/11/2013 @14:53
"Because of the life that I lead, I just think that it's better to not be with someone that I could really care about." - Arrow

15/11/2013 @15:39
Wow... so as part of my proactive Friday afternoons I naively decided to change my bedroom around... I enthusiastically pulled my king size bed away from the wall to be met with a load of mould. Sorting shit like this out is definitely not one of the perks of living alone haha.
[feeling unimpressed]

15/11/2013 @16:22
Love this haha, and I recommend anybody professional follow Claire Diaz Ortiz, she's on the ball for all things marketing and general lifestyle hacks, really inspires me to better myself and improve my self awareness - so yeah, if you find logic and motivation in what I post, definitely check her out too... :)
[http://www.buzzfeed.com/nataliemorin/little-lies-we-all-say-to-ourselves]

15/11/2013 @16:49
So James Arthur dropped a mediocre FITB, and got a little attention on the UKHH/grime circuit... but this beef with Mickey Worthless is embarrassing. I am literally cringing listening to his response... stick to the pop scene James. The speaking on the fade out alone... wow.

15/11/2013 @17:44
You don't need to speak to or see a real mate every day, you can meet up after months of no contact and just pick up right where you left off. That's a true mate.

15/11/2013 @17:58
This is brilliant! Top parenting!
[https://medium.com/thoughts-on-creativity/6f4cb1886d41]

15/11/2013 @19:28
Tonight, my concerns spiral towards that of debt. My own debt is upward of £30,000 (including University loans), but that is actually a drop in a very fucking big ocean compared to the UK's National Debt of over a trillion. My personal debt doesn't even concern me, however the National Debt really does. Let's take a moment to actually look at the bigger picture before we begin disregarding it as "no biggie". Forecasts for 2012/2013 are suggesting our national debt will rise to around £1.4 trillion, around 90% of our GDP (Gross Domestic Product). The interest we pay on these debts is at historical lows, but still around 3% of our GDP (£48 billion), which is forecast to rise close to £70 billion per year over the next half a decade as interest rates increase. Still, so what? The country owes out shit loads of money, who cares right? You should. Ironically, the outcome will more than likely directly affect all of us. Unsustainable levels of debt for a country has historically, and systematically resulted in a structural deficit that can only be remedied by fucking us all over. The more the population increases (either through child birth or immigration), the more the welfare costs increase for pensions, education and healthcare. This will not benefit the economic growth or tax revenues of our country, or help us to reduce our debt. If anything, it serves to only worsen the situation. You know the likely result? Get ready for this, because it's hilarious! Increasing the age of retirement so they can withhold and reduce pension payments is expected right off the bat, along with increasing taxation to circumvent the increasing Government spending. So basically we can work for more years, for even less income, simply so the Government can continue spending large sums of money on welfare and benefits, largely for the increasing number of immigrants. In 1974, Edward Heath saw income tax hit 83%. What the actual fuck? Greece are in a financial crisis at the moment, and look at their situation - salaries and pensions are reported to be slashed around 40%, benefits are practically non-existent, and there has been literal uprising and rioting in the streets protesting as the Government desperately tries to recover from their past oversights. We aren't even that far off Greece in terms of GDP. "In May 2010, the Greek government deficit was again revised and estimated to be 13.6% which was the second highest in the world relative to GDP with Iceland in first place at 15.7% and Great Britain third with 12.6%." This Government needs to wake the fuck up and start implementing some actual procedures, policies and control systems to stem the bloodloss before our country completely bleeds out. Wake the fuck up people - politics is something we all need to be involved in! "We used to think you could spend your way out of recession and increase employment by boosting Government spending. I tell you that option no longer exists. And so far as it ever did exist, it only worked on each occasion by injecting a bigger dose of inflation into the economy, followed by a higher level of unemployment as the next step." - Jim Callaghan [feeling aware]

15/11/2013 @19:49
"Why are you so in love with, why are you so in love with a notion?
It doesn't do you any good, it doesn't do you any good at all."



15/11/2013 @22:24
Happiness flourishes in simplicity.
[feeling content]

15/11/2013 @23:38
Classic Depp, undeniably the King of quirkiness.

16/11/2013 @09:15
Headphones in and a big smile on my face... en route to fetch my lil munchkin
[feeling wonderful]

16/11/2013 @11:00
When your child is asleep, even the slightest noise seems deafening.

16/11/2013 @16:10
"Every girl I've ever had either says I got too much baggage,
or I'm too fuckin' dramatic.../
Man what the fuck is the matter, I'm just a fucking romantic!"

;)

16/11/2013 @17:43
[watching White House Down]

16/11/2013 @19:23
Lack of money makes me seem a lot more "settled down" than I actually am. My feet want to dance, my ears crave loud music and my body is begging me for alcohol... yet my bank balance overrules them all. Fuck you bank balance.

17/11/2013 @01:00
Decided Far Cry 3 was worthy of my next attention... it hasn't disappointed thus far (hence the 10 trophies in one sitting) - and it's such a vast beautiful game with so much variety and engagement. Definitely recommend it to FPS fans.

17/11/2013 @12:52
Happiness flourishes in simplicity. The more simple your life is, the happier you are. Prioritise your existence, realise the things that actually matter, and disregard the rest. Don't let little things ruin your day if they don't affect you long term - smile in the face of adversity, and remember that positivity and optimism are a conscious choice.

17/11/2013 @13:19
Can't wait to see my lil' man shortly - forgot about this gem of a video until a friend just reminded me of it! haha :'L x


18/11/2013 @02:44
"I'll have a quick thrash on Far Cry 3" I thought... about 9hrs ago.

18/11/2013 @03:16
I think I best be going bed now... suffice to say, FarCry3 has definitely got my attention.
[feeling addicted]

18/11/2013 @12:11
The only thing worse than failing, is not even trying.

18/11/2013 @23:18
Dragged myself away from FarCry3 to have something eat before bed since all I've had so far all day is a bag of Snaps haha...
[watching Homeland]

20/11/2013 @01:32
If my sleep pattern has taught me one thing, it's that knowing I can easily function on 6hrs sleep encourages late nights!

20/11/2013 @09:22
Wish my cup of coffee was big enough to cuddle my entire body around.
[feeling cold]

20/11/2013 @21:27
Today has been absolute overkill with win!
[feeling fanfuckingtastic!]

20/11/2013 @22:45
Oh my actual fucking God! :O
[watching Sons of Anarchy]

21/11/2013 @08:31
It comes to sumat when I have to catch a bus 1hr before I start work to travel from Smallthorne to Hanley just to be on time!

21/11/2013 @09:17
The only person who can hold you back resides inside your reflection.

21/11/2013 @23:44
Love my lil' Ilypie so very, very much! :') x

22/11/2013 @00:47
I look back at my chequered past with a victorious smile, because I know I've been through the darkest days and overcame every obstacle I faced. This time last year I was suffering massively from depression - I hid it well behind a brave mask, but the truth is I was falling apart inside. Very few people know but I was speaking to Samaritans daily to deal with suicidal thoughts and very dark nightmares, and desperately trying to piece my shattered life back together. I honestly thought that my time here was up, and that I couldn't make it back from the place I'd ended up. Fast forward to today, and although my life isn't perfect, I've got everything I could ever need. If you'd have asked me a year ago, I would never have imagined that life could ever be this good again. I am a living example that people can change, that time does heal, and that things can get better if you're willing to fight for what you want. Life can try to break you any time it chooses, but whether or not it succeeds is always your choice. "It is our light not our darkness that most frightens us... and as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same." [feeling immortal]

22/11/2013 @14:08
Martin Garrix is a beast... 17 years old and he is killing the music game!! He proves age is just a number, and that you can do something productive with your life even when you're just a young'un!


22/11/2013 @14:56
It's much better when we all just get along! #BeTheBiggerPerson @Rob & @Lorna!

22/11/2013 @22:24
Feel like me and my ex have finally turned a corner and communicating a hell of a lot better :) - she actually seems to be being reasonable and acting in our daughters best interests for the first time since she was born. Trying to not get your hopes up is difficult when it concerns something you're so passionate about... I truly hope this is the start of a better future for our daughter ♥

22/11/2013 @23:46
Going have a shave, a bath and then go bed ready for fetching my little munchkin in the morning :') - I think I'm going to be giving her even more big cuddles than usual tomorrow to make her feel better since she's not very well... ♥

23/11/2013 @14:53
Just dropped me lil cutie pie daughter off after having another brilliant day with her... even more so because of how supportive and friendly my ex has been!
[feeling blessed]

23/11/2013 @16:52
I love when people drop out of online multiplayer and it forces you to restart the entire mission, said nobody ever.

23/11/2013 @18:24
People you may know: 1 of your hundreds of friends knows this person, so you possibly do too. If you don't know them, don't worry, we'll only suggest you add them every single day that you log into Facebook. You're welcome.

23/11/2013 @19:35
First time I've ever seen Ilysha standing properly unsupported, and she even takes a cheeky little step forward too! :') #ProudDaddy! ♥ x

23/11/2013 @20:09
Free house, free time... all I'm missing is free beer and company! All applications considered...

23/11/2013 @20:39
My lil' Princess showing off her balance standing up on her own :') x

23/11/2013 @20:41
Peek-a-boo flap book and my Ilysha kept saying "he's there" when she pulled it open hehe :') x

23/11/2013 @22:13
I never would have imagined that Russell Brand would be the person to expand my mind, and to make me question some fundamental ideologies. I feel truly awakened watching this, and very aware of my own untapped potential. We live within self imposed restraints and surrender ourselves to ignorance every day that we fail to acknowledge the infiniteness of consciousness. We all need to wake up from this superficial and materialistic Matrix. "We think that reality is what we can apportion from the limited instruments of the senses, but reality is of course far beyond that. Spiritual data - we don't have the correct instruments to receive it, and we live primarily in the realm of the senses. Anything that we are describing through science, we're describing through the prism of the five limited senses. Our eyes can only see between infra-red light and ultraviolet light, there's light bouncing around everywhere. Our ears can only hear a tiny decibel range, can't hear the noise of a dog whistle, can't hear any high pitched frequency sounds. Isn't it likely then that there are other vibrations, frequencies, energies, consciousness moving through the Universe? Consciousness is an amorphous and expanding entity, I think that we allow our consciousness to be prohibited by our senses, prescribed by our senses, living in the realm of these five apertures into our reality. But reality is limitless, space is infinite, time eternal. The line between good and evil runs not between cultures, religions or creed, but through every human heart. So I recognise in myself the capacity for selfishness, for lustfulness, for egotism... and because I recognise these qualities in myself, I would prefer a culture that didn't celebrate, exacerbate, stimulate the most negative aspects of our species, Inculcate them, reward them financially, until we get to the kind of a cultural hysteria where we're destroying the planet. We need systems that get the resources to the people whilst respecting the planet. Any system that's detrimental to the planet, or detrimental to the people because it helps one or two bods... FUCK IT OFF! We're allowed to do that you know!? Happiness cannot be forever sustained like some glistening bauble, it's a transitory thing like a butterfly alighting on Snow White's finger." #mindblown #awakening [with Christopher Downs, Tu Ben Ngo and Brittany Edelman]


23/11/2013 @22:39
I would be angry at the people in this video, but I realise that their blatant ignorance is the result of being pawns to the system. Only one person on the panel seems to relate to the raised points, and he's over spoken and bullied by the others present into backing down and withdrawing his valid supporting arguments. I love how they seemingly overlook the point completely, as they select footage they can easily ridicule and challenge without presenting all the facts - this is clearly damage limitation via media manipulation by the profiting corporations who hold all the cards. They are trying to discredit Russell Brand, albeit poorly, to discourage the revolution he is inspiring. The comments in this section about him not voting @06:27 epitomises my point. Russell Brand's view on not voting is logical and rational - why does it matter who you vote for when you never benefit from it regardless? And the financial pie is finite in the context that Russell Brand is referring to it; profit and deficit are synonymous. Puppeteers profit from the exploitation of the mass population. The deficit is the living conditions and the damage to the planet. Apparently there is no deficit when rich people steal the Earth's natural resources and sell them for massive profit for personal gain? Okay. Actually I rescind my initial sentence. I am angry at the ignorance of these fucking cunts.


24/11/2013 @12:27
This has just moved me to tears, such a beautiful video - seeing other parents doubts and worries about the uncertainty of their child's future resonated deep inside me, reflecting my own fears. I think it's natural for every parent to have concerns about the world their child is being born into, or raised into; one where we are shown atrocities daily, where wars and conflicts are only an argument away, famine and drought ravage entire countries, and natural disasters continue to devastate our planet. I fear for the future, because I've seen what human beings are capable of, and since becoming a parent it's difficult to overlook the negative traits of our species. I see that we need unity and love, we need to embrace each other as family regardless of race, religion and creed - we are one blood, and we should only want the best for everybody else who shares the oxygen we breathe and the planet we inhabit. But I see that greed, hate and jealousy prevent this, I see that there are too many people consumed by their own selfishness to ever allow the unity and love to flourish. The uncertainty of a child's future is a burden on a parent. You want the best for your child, but sometimes it seems like the best you can do is simply make the best of the situations. #brightfuture #unilever #projectsunlight


24/11/2013 @17:32
Had a lovely exhausting day with my lil' man, now it's time to chill out and end another fantastic weekend by putting my feet up and relaxing... ahhh...
[feeling content]

24/11/2013 @19:14
"If this is to end in fire... then we shall all burn together."
#Ed ♡

24/11/2013 @21:51
"You may not be perfect, but you are all you've got to work with. The process of becoming who you will be, begins first with the total acceptance of who you are."

24/11/2013 @22:31
The road I walked here - although I regret stuff I've done,
It's made me who I am and I'm proud of who I've become.
Far from perfect and yes, hurt shows on the surface -
But in the end I guess, it seems that everything was worth it.

24/11/2013 @22:57
I don't even care if nobody else listens to my music, I love listening back to my tracks and reminding myself of where I've come from, of all the emotions and experiences that were prominent at the time I made the song. Making music truly is my coping mechanism.

25/11/2013 @09:55
Half day has been productive so far - been the gym, watched the latest two episodes of Walking Dead, and still got a couple of hours to occupy before going to work.
[feeling accomplished]

25/11/2013 @10:08
Just booked the appointment to re-register my Princess Ilysha... it's long overdue, but as of next Tuesday I should finally have my name added to her birth certificate!
[feeling wonderful]

25/11/2013 @12:26
Optimism is the conscious choice to deny negativity the satisfaction of victory. Smile defiantly, and know that your happiness is stronger than every obstacle you could ever face...♥- breathe deeply, appreciate each breath and flourish in the knowledge that you are beautiful ♡

25/11/2013 @18:16
Appreciate each passing moment, because you will never get them back.

25/11/2013 @18:27
Really looking forward to going see the new Hobbit film... :) - you pair both up for this in a couple weeks?!
[with Terry Scott and Matthew Morris]


25/11/2013 @21:11
Impatience results in unnatural tolerance.
[watching The Hunger Games: Catching Fire]


25/11/2013 @23:00
Some songs bring back memories so vividly that they feel like just yesterday...
[feeling nostalgic]

26/11/2013 @00:18
If you are reading this, then the message is for you. I love you, wholeheartedly and completely with everything that I am. I want nothing but the best for you, and I wish you all the success, happiness and peace in the world. I want you to be content with yourself and to accept each of your imperfections as a perfect piece to your individualism. I want you to embrace the mistakes of your past and let them make you a better person, not a bitter one. I pray the best of your past is the worst of your future, and that every day you wake up to a fulfilling life that reminds you of the blessings you have. I want you to see the rainbow in every storm, the light at the end of every tunnel and the lesson in every hardship. I want you to love everybody else the way that I love you. I love you, and love is all we really need to make this world a better place. Sweet dreams xo

26/11/2013 @08:29
Haha too true!

26/11/2013 @08:41
Waking my brain the fuck up.
[listening to Skrillex]

26/11/2013 @13:31
A smile is the best weapon for fighting pessimism.

26/11/2013 @18:25
Alarms these days are mostly redundant. I hear car alarms, fire alarms, house alarms... and all I think is: "Someone turn that shit off, it's proper annoying."

26/11/2013 @20:18
Not expecting much from it, but...
[watching Drinking Buddies]

26/11/2013 @21:23
My passion lies in creativity... art, music, and writing. Whenever I have time to myself, that's how I usually seek to occupy it. " Keep interested in your own career, however humble; it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time." - Desiderata

27/11/2013 @09:00
Drink that half glass optimistically, wear that smile proudly, and have a fantastic day beautiful!♡

27/11/2013 @11:10
Worth it turned to worthless, from the moment they learned you were not imperfect.

27/11/2013 @21:58
"All I ask of you... all I ask of you...
just open up a little bit more..."

♫ ♡ [listening to Skrillex]

27/11/2013 @23:13
Open for collaboration, if anybody is interested in dropping a verse just hit me up on inbox.
[http://www.reverbnation.com/anothab/song/19310153-sweet-nothing]

28/11/2013 @00:29
It's almost Christmas, that time of year when everyone who is single wishes they had somebody special to cuddle up with.

28/11/2013 @08:53
I couldn't live without music... I'm here proper one man raving on the bus to work lol! Smile!
[feeling wonderful]

28/11/2013 @18:46
Happy Thanksgiving to all my U.S. homies, make it count, I've got nothing to watch on TV this week as a result! ;)

28/11/2013 @19:40
"I've found it is the small things, everyday deeds of ordinary folk, that keeps the darkness at bay. Simple acts of kindness and love."

28/11/2013 @22:32
Just put up my Xmas tree, feeling a bit more festive now!
[feeling Xmassy!]

28/11/2013 @23:33
There's always those few people who make you wonder how things might have been different, if only you'd knew back then what you know now. It makes you realise just how delicate life really is, where one decision can change your future entirely.

28/11/2013 @23:51
"Our lives pass in the blink of an eye,
or the twinkle of one glint of one star in the sky."


29/11/2013 @08:50
It's only fricking Friday again, and I feel fucking fantastically fresh! Smile all you lovely people, share your happiness with this world! I love you all now let's fucking do this! Come at me Friday!!!
[feeling totes-amazeballs]

29/11/2013 @15:08
"Don't you ever say, I just walked away, I will always want you."
♫ ♡

29/11/2013 @18:29
Well, that's pretty much all the housework done, and most of the bills paid... and now I'm bored... hmm, what to do!?

29/11/2013 @19:11
Too much choice can be as overwhelming as none.

29/11/2013 @20:47
That heartbreaking moment when you humiliate someone to the point that they block you on Facebook hahaha! #trololololol

29/11/2013 @23:49
Just looking through photos of my daughter and really can't wait to see her tomorrow... I'm going to hug, cuddle and kiss her loads and loads and loads and even more!!
[feeling amazing]

30/11/2013 @09:18
Daddy is on his way beautiful little Princess... ♡
[feeling lovely]

30/11/2013 @20:39
Well 2013, you've lived up to my hopes ♥

30/11/2013 @20:40
See all you doubters, Santa is real :') x

30/11/2013 @20:42
:') ♥

30/11/2013 @20:59
This is a testament to how much better my life has got since last year... last Christmas my only wish was to have my daughter back in my life... this year I would be happy with getting a decent phone signal in my living room.

30/11/2013 @22:12
Have fun out partying tonight... I am happily cuddled up in my sleeping bag, under the magical enchanting lights of my Christmas tree, drinking a big mug of hot chocolate and watching Home Alone to end another perfect day with my little perfect Ilypie ♡
[feeling content]

30/11/2013 @23:58
So, my Princess had been hesitant to actually use her walker since I bought it for her, but today there was no stopping her! She just wanted grab it and off she went! So cute! She is growing way too quickly! Where did my little baby girl go?! x
[with Terry Scott, Stace Lewis, Matthew Morris, Dawn Wheels Owen and Sheila Scott]

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