An overview of opinions and observations for the month.
Sunday, 31 December 2017
Content Consumption 2017
*insert generic philosophical and deeply introspective status about New Year whilst knowing tomorrow will be the same as today except with more hangovers and more non committed gym membership applications*
Wednesday, 13 December 2017
Relapse Avoidance #10
I haven't posted in a while because life has been somewhat hectic with the Christmas preparations; between work, my daughter and shopping, I haven't had any opportunity.
Ironically I also hadn't had any risk of relapse, I have been that preoccupied I haven't even had time to think about it. Until last night.
It was a work Christmas meal and a colleague of mine is still a frequent/moderate user. He knows my situation and resultantly once we've had a few drinks we end up discussing drug tales; we both have some interesting stories about situations, scenarios and experiences. We were the only smokers too, so I found myself repeatedly in his sole company, outside just bantering.
Halfway through the night he begins playing with the idea of how cool it would be if we had a mad night together on cocaine. I concede he has a point and it would be a laugh, as on drugs people tend to become closer after sharing the experience. He brought it up multiple times throughout the night, and drinks kept flowing making it harder to fight off the temptation.
Ultimately I managed to survive the night without succumbing but it wasn't easy by a long shot. On a few occasions I had contemplated silently whether to agree to it but deep down I knew I would regret it afterwards when I had to reset my sobriety.
In life there will always be temptations; we just have to be stronger and stay true to our integrity.