An overview of opinions and observations for the month.
01/09/2022 @00:11
Borrowed my Dad's 81x photo albums, bought a Canon LiDE 300 scanner and have spent all night digitising nostalgia. It's making me miss all my siblings more than I can articulate - I am truly blessed to have such wonderful brothers and sisters. It's also heartbreaking to be reminded of the lost innocence and naivety, back when we all had no cares in the world, and life was safe and simple.
01/09/2022 @23:48
Been a good night returning to Thursday night footy after 7 weeks off with torn ankle ligaments; different dynamic at Fenton Indoor Pitch with a 4-on-4, and a good catch up with the lads afterwards at Hem Heath. And now I'm about to make myself some tea at almost midnight lol, fucking starving!
02/09/2022 @23:14
Imagine working hard all your life to earn money, owning everything you have (nothing on finance/credit/pay later etc), spoiling your kid at every opportunity even if it means you go without stuff yourself, and then at 9yrs old they turn around and say: "It's different at your house; Mum's is the rich house, yours is the poor house" 🙃🔫 well fuck me and all my hard work I guess?!
03/09/2022 @22:21
Utterly given up today with restricting Frog's eating. Apparently she has the appetite of a small village, and I am fed up of arguing with her about her claims of being "starving" every couple of hours. It's exhausting. I'm beginning to understand why kids end up obese.
05/09/2022 @10:11
Anybody with two brain cells to rub together can understand this is correct; they just refuse to accept it because, "Russia man bad". You cannot keep printing more money every time you run out, and expect there to be no consequences. There is no magic money tree; just debt. ["Because they could not or would not devise any other recipes, the governments of the leading Western economies simply accelerated their money-printing machines. Such a simple way to make up for unprecedented budget deficits. I have already cited this figure: over the past two years, the money supply in the United States has grown by more than 38%. The EU’s money supply has also increased dramatically over this period. It grew by about 20%, or Euros 2.5 trillion. It is this that is creating inflation. The rising prices, accelerating inflation, shortages of food and fuel, petrol, and problems in the energy sector are the result of system-wide errors the current US administration and European bureaucracy have made in their economic policies."][https://www.russia-briefing.com/news/president-putin-spief-2022-speech-russia-s-new-business-investment-policies.html]
06/09/2022 @08:03
There is something amusingly poetic about my first birthday wish being from the Excel Help Forum.
06/09/2022 @19:11
Just had a birthday visit off my Frog which has really cheered me up. I'll be honest, up to this point, my birthday had been relatively shit 💩 Waking up in a house alone, with no gifts and only two cards to open is never a thrilling prospect. Spent all day at work just dealing with headaches and tech issues, whilst trying to finalise arrangements for tonight. Finished work and had to practically double pace it home, because we're booked in bowling for 19:25 and I don't usually get home until 18:20ish 🙃 Having an hour to shower, get ready, have something eat, see Frog, and get my ass to Tenpin is stressful AF 🎳 Not what I wanted on my birthday! Frog messaged me mid-afternoon with a screenshot off Roblox but never even wished me a happy birthday... 🥺 - today was just blahh right up until I got a cuddle off my Frog just now tbf! 😌
06/09/2022 @23:39
Been a good night out bowling with the fam 🎳 finished 3rd on the first game with 88, and won the second with 94 (admittedly only because I got a Spare on my last bowl!). My first birthday celebrations where I've not had any alcohol at all - didn't really mind that much. Nice to have a clear head and be present in the moment. I'm sure I'll be grateful tomorrow when I wake up with no hangover too!
07/09/2022 @09:04
My Frog is starting Middle School today. She look's so grown up, it's actually mad! 🤯😍
07/09/2022 @09:47
Damn, just seen about Pat Stay! RIP Sucka Free Boss!
08/09/2022 @14:26
She-Hulk is cringe, woke, feminist garbage. Also, it's not "review bombing" when something is genuinely dreadful - it's just accurate reviewing 💅
08/09/2022 @18:45
The Queen is dead, long live the King 👑
09/09/2022 @19:27
"Dad, can you be more like Mum this weekend; don't be funny, or say things like "it's corn" and "I don't currrr" because I always get told off when I go home and do it, so I need to get used to not being like that." 😔
10/09/2022 @18:24
Another weekend without seeing Charlie. This time his anxiety is allegedly playing up so he won't be coming. A few weeks back it was because of a migraine. After having zero acknowledgement of Father's Day too this year, and now this becoming a trend, I'm finding it difficult to not conclude he's just outgrown our closeness as he's growing up. It's not cool to hang around with your 35yr old Uncle when you're a teenager, and I get that. Still going to miss seeing him again...
10/09/2022 @23:19
It's been an emotional, albeit cathartic, night saying a collective goodbye to Nan at The Talisman. A bittersweet gathering of family for a nostalgic reflection on the love and memories that we share of a great lady. Nan was the rock of our family, the centre-piece, the heart; she will be dearly missed by all. The night was peppered with teary moments, heartfelt speeches, and shots of Bailey's raised in her memory. A few of the siblings have gone to The Golden Cup to continue drinking, whereas I've come home, completely sober and am watching "Thor: Love and Thunder" before bed. Love you Nan, I find comfort that you are at peace now; you'd been saying you were ready to go, and that you'd had a good life. We were blessed that you kept your memories all the way until the end, and that we got to spend so many treasured moments with you. Rest now Nan, we'll carry your memory onward in our hearts. Love you forever ❤
11/09/2022 @23:21
I've literally spent all day sat on the sofa scanning in photos and watching the entire 11 episode first season of The Sandman in a single sitting. My step count is on about 46, and I've missed a meal too 😐
12/09/2022 @18:14
Unpopular opinion; most of the time, the thought of a takeaway is better than the actual takeaway.
12/09/2022 @19:04
Paying off debt is a humbling experience; I'm finally down to owing less than £2k, and it feels like such a morally righteous achievement. I'm almost on the home straight now, and in one month I'll only have one debtor remaining to pay off 🙌
13/09/2022 @22:30
Scanning in all these childhood memories is breaking my heart. Seeing the happy, carefree, innocence and love shared between my siblings, with the knowledge of what our lives have endured since then. The heartbreak, trauma, loss, grief, despair... divorce, separation, homelessness, suicide, addiction... The realisation that me & Tez effectively abandoned Stace when we moved in with my Dad, that we left her behind - I love her so much and I cannot bare to think of the rejection and abandonment she must have felt when we moved out - all those years of us happy together, and we just left a hole in her world. Ironically, Moz actually got me a card for my birthday last week, and it's verse really choked me up for it's poignancy which seems uber relevant right now: "I sometimes wish we could go back in time, just for one day, so we can appreciate just how lucky we were..."
14/09/2022 @19:58
Speaking to my Mum and Dawn about Charlie just frustrates me lately. Just been told that because of his "PDA (autism), severe anxiety, behavioural issues, sleep issues, and dietary issues" he may end up medicated if counselling doesn't work to prevent "a nervous breakdown". Fuck my actual life. Swear it feels like Munchausen syndrome by proxy (MSP) at times; there is always some medical excuse for everything - whereas I genuinely believe it's just lazy parenting with zero discipline, which has resulted in a teenager with zero accountability or empathy.
15/09/2022 @09:36
Just reminiscing to when white CIS males, and white heterosexual couples had representation in media. Ahh, fond memories.
16/09/2022 @19:02
Is it just me that doesn't use a sponge when showering? Genuinely confused here by why it's such a big deal to some people... 😵
17/09/2022 @06:08
Rude awakening because Lysh has a nosebleed for some reason. Best be able go back kip, or I'm gonna be knackered all day!
17/09/2022 @11:29
Last night I killed 3 spiders that were loitering around the kitchen, right before bed. This morning I've found a carpet beetle in my room, which I admittedly had to Google as I had no idea wtf it was! Why do my homes always attract a variety of insect lodgers ffs!
17/09/2022 @16:42
Fun afternoon at Dimensions with the Frog. Even bumped into Ecko & Amy Bullock down there. Always see people I know lately.
17/09/2022 @20:04
School photo companies really are daylight robbery cunts. £27 for a digital copy of a photo; not even printing the fucking thing, literally just sending me over the file. Tempest and Academy both horrible fuckers for it. Yes, I will still be buying it... what? Yes, yes, I know I'm retarded.
18/09/2022 @13:17
Talking to my Mum on WhatsApp; Lysh tries join in the convo, my Mum shouts at her to not interrupt. Frog scurries out the room evidently upset. I find her crying because she "wanted talk to her Nan" - but as she sees it, her Nan never has any interest in her - she just dismissively acknowledges whatever Lysh says with a nod and a half-hearted "yeh". It's actually become quite a recurring trend I've noticed that she also never even asks about her. Every time I try to mention Ilysha, I get quickly hurried off the topic so that my Mum can get back to telling me about Charlie and how many free gifts he's had this week off his teachers, and what special action packed days out he's had lately at "school". Ridiculous and depressing to be honest.
18/09/2022 @19:28
How fucking hard is it to tumble dry a towels load?! Christ in a life-raft! About 3.5 fucking hours now these cunting things have been drying, and they're still damp AF! Waste of fucking electric! Given up and wung them all on the fucking radiators and banged heating on! Fuck off!
18/09/2022 @23:43
Been a stressful weekend with no singular cause. I'm going bed, genuinely cbf.
19/09/2022 @18:47
Popped down see my Dad, Ang & Embem whilst dropping the photo albums back off now I've scanned them all in. Had a nice 3hr chat with them about anything and everything - enjoyed. And now I'm back home to game with the Frog before she goes bed ☺
19/09/2022 @21:34
Why is it that when you tell people you like hot sauce, they take it as a challenge to only buy you the most extreme one's that they can find? It doesn't have to be Carolina Reaper, Ghost Pepper, Scorpion Pepper, Scotch Bonnet and the like... 🥵 I do still just like a cheeky sriracha, chipotle, peri peri etc to add a little spice to a meal... it doesn't have to be 10 zillion Scoville Units and make me shit blood the next day 🩸💩
20/09/2022 @18:05
Had to work over tonight to replace the MP20 and LCP daughter boards on the OS7200 because the database had corrupted and wiped all the station keys on every handset. Funny when after replacing them, the system boots and the phones are on day mode which can't be changed because the station key RTO preset has wiped. Even funnier still, cue the hilarity when the Automatic Door Closer decides to jam up, and I can't open the server room door enough to get clearance to get out the room and end up having to get Dave pass me a screwdriver so I can unscrew the fucking thing to get out! Then manually have to program the RTO station key from the 800 operator code and the 722 MMC because the password for the software management kit has reset too, and I'm locked out on a technicality. What an experience!
22/09/2022 @10:01
How did I never know about Dilbert before?! This is top tier content.
24/09/2022 @07:20
To compete with last weekends nose bleed, Ilysha just kicked off today by falling down the stairs. What even is my child?
Imagine thinking that buying a 13-year old child with severe mental health issues an airsoft gun is appropriate 🤯 - I actually cannot even deal right now - this same 13-year old who has a penchant for violence and destructive behaviour, and has already told me they intend to take the airsoft gun out in public, and down the forest to "shoot squirrels" 🤦♂️ oh, and he's also got a Rooster card now and claims he's having £1400 per year added to his account in "pocket money" (£20p/w + £30p/m) which he's spending on laser attachments, metal BB's, and green blow-back smoke...
Legit annoyed. Had an email saying I've activated the 7-day free trial of Hayu on my Amazon Prime account when I haven't. Presumably this was Tez/Stace since I let them use my Prime account. It's not been discussed with me beforehand despite it being a benefit on MY account, which is paid for by ME - and it should be at MY discretion when it's activated. Now I need to prioritise watching anything of interest on Hayu within the next 7-days, alternatively I'll have to pay for a subscription at a later date for it/miss out. Thoroughly annoyed - what kind of entitled person does that?! It's MY account!!
The one who got away just told me they're getting a divorce; it's hard to not feel some kind of way.
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