Thursday, 28 February 2013

Monthly Musings: February 2013

An overview of opinions and observations for the month.

01/02/2013 @02:21
Just been on the phone to Evila for like 2hrs chatting bout everything from analogies, snakes, shortcuts from motorways, computers, RAM, cloud software, viruses, cash scams, kids, legal processes, RIW poetry workshops, studios, rap battling, the world record for saying "and", music, football, Tesco horse burgers, dogs shagging girls, girls sucking tampons, films, shit camera men, rendering fails, school shooting rankings, DFAFD, man vs food... haha, overdue catch up but I need sleep before work haha.

01/02/2013 @09:14
A bloke at Burger King who was serving just asked what I want on my Burger. I said a fiver each way please mate.

01/02/2013 @18:02
The weekend has arrived!! :D

01/02/2013 @18:57
Now I fight those flaws that once consumed me.../
Chunk and Ricky now can both live through me.../
I will fight for their memories, remember their names.../
I hear them in the silence, remember when it rains.

01/02/2013 @18:58
Written and recorded by Ben Scott, 2012.


01/02/2013 @20:42
My Saturday mornings are much different than most of yours, because the gym doesn't give you a hangover.

02/02/2013 @01:20
I miss you and wonder if you miss me too...
wonder if I tried to kiss you, would you kiss me too?

02/02/2013 @18:55
Now that the pain's gone - I feel like the game's on.../
Pass me the pad, I'm 'bout to Platinum the main one.

[http://www.reverbnation.com/anothab/song/16083615-wish-me-your-best]

02/02/2013 @19:56
Up Hanley duck later, first time out on the town since I became a Daddy.
[with Terry Scott, Matthew Morris and Lea Hope]

02/02/2013 @02:47
Tonight has simply served to confirm past opinion... town is overrated.

03/02/2013 @03:49
Rise like a martyr to die for the cause.../
For the Fathers muted by the system and laws.../
Fight through the courts, shake the Earth to the core.../
Our voice is our weapon, and we won't be ignored!

03/02/2013 @13:42
What's the opposite of smooth? Me.

03/02/2013 @14:11
If you've never heard Eklips beatboxing and like Hip-Hop then get from under that rock. Dude is a beast.


03/02/2013 @22:50
"There's so many rights and wrongs when you raise a kid.../
I just want that Father and daughter relationship."



03/02/2013 @23:09

03/02/2013 @23:22
"I'm gonna wreck it!!"

04/02/2013 @01:08
Sometimes I just can't find the words I need to explain how I feel. #Ilysha

04/02/2013 @09:30
Only four more days until the weekend after today :)

04/02/2013 @18:05
The 'hard road' and the 'righteous path' are usually the same one.

04/02/2013 @22:36
Radeo Suicide is adorable ♥
[http://vimeo.com/49557073]

04/02/2013 @23:39
"Knowledge and patience, the only counter to greater skill."

05/02/2013 @09:27
"I've had bad habits but I dropped em.../
I've had opponents but I knocked them out.../
I've climbed the highest mountains,
I've swum the coldest seas.../
There ain't a thing I've faced that's been too much for me!"



05/02/2013 @14:46
I just caught the bus and the driver pissed himself laughing cause I looked like I was half snowman.

05/02/2013 @18:23
Since I'm not going the gym with Terry, I might just go the Vale with Rob.

05/02/2013 @19:31
Eat clean, train dirty.

05/02/2013 @21:28
Hahahaha! I've definitely seen some of this going on!

05/02/2013 @21:44
"Ninja? You're a ninja?! Get outta here, you're a ninja?!!" - got this on repeat lately! Absolutely ♥ it!


06/02/2013 @13:02
It used to be one step forwards, two steps back. These days it's three steps forward, and not even a backwards glance. How can you take a backward step, when you're continually pushing forward? You can't. When your focus is locked and your motivation is progression, your momentum becomes unstoppable. So thanks to everyone who ever doubted me, it fuelled my willpower.

06/02/2013 @21:09
Forget the cigarette, it's time for weights and shakes. #beastmode

06/02/2013 @23:03
Personally I think practical jokes and tricks are always the absolute best when you don't expect them or see them coming. There is nothing quite like trolling an unsuspecting person and duping them into See more

07/02/2013 @00:12
I've got a date for Valentines. It's the 14th.

07/02/2013 @18:53
Nine weeks ago I started mediation attempts. Four weeks ago I had confirmation my ex hadn't bothered to respond. Today I receive a letter that she has decided now that she wants to attempt mediation after all? I don't think so somehow, bring on the court proceedings.

07/02/2013 @20:25
Hahaha! Innuendo is hilarious. "I will out banter you till you fucking collapse..." [Innuendo Gets Revenge On A Debt Collector]

07/02/2013 @23:31
I remember everything, even all those little things that everyone else forgot ♥

08/02/2013 @09:33
Feeling funky fucking fresh for a Friday... :)

08/02/2013 @11:23
My phone's artificial intelligence must be borderline retarded; if it doesn't wise up, it'll end up borderline smashed with a hammer.

08/02/2013 @13:33
The only thing consistent about change, is people moaning about it.

08/02/2013 @22:16
"I'm gonna cut to the chase... I've got absolutely no chance with you. Unless you're a prostitute? Or a smack head or something?"

09/02/2013 @00:33
This.

09/02/2013 @00:43
The Undateables is 50% comedy, and 50% tragedy; hilarious and heartbreaking at the same time.

09/02/2013 @01:38
Those little comments that you should just ignore, and yet you're helpless to not let them get to you. I guess at least ranting behind closed doors means no satisfaction is gleaned by the instigator.

09/02/2013 @11:07
I know you're there, I'm just choosing to ignore you, and hopefully soon you'll just go away for good.

09/02/2013 @11:33
I made a promise.
[http://anothab.tumblr.com/post/27324626608/promise]

09/02/2013 @12:12
Eat for your body, not for your tastebuds.

09/02/2013 @16:21
The best decision I ever made was to stop caring what other people think about me.

09/02/2013 @18:33
Life is what happens to you while you're busy making other plans.

09/02/2013 @19:45
If you like Dubstep, you need to download this ♥
[http://kat.ph/va-dubstep-pro-v-15-2013-mp3-320-kbps-t7067474.html]

09/02/2013 @20:24
It was a toss up tonight between watching films, playing PS3 or getting smashed. I chose to get a bottle of water, a towel, some loud dubstep and get some cardio, core and weights done. #beastmode_enabled

10/02/2013 @00:31
Been a while since I've found a film who's title is also a summary of the plot and characters. It is tentatively called "Mental", and yes, yes it fucking is.

10/02/2013 @14:39
Hi, my name is Ben. I like romantic walks across moonlit beaches, cuddling up with hot chocolate watching television, and when all the technology in my house decides it wants to join the cunt party and refuse to function how it fucking should.

10/02/2013 @22:16
Almost time to close the door on another good weekend; quick bath and then bed I reckon, ready for getting back up to go gym at 6.30am.

11/02/2013 @02:23
That moment when u wake up and mistakenly believe its later than it is; then you realise it's earlier than you thought, and you can go back to sleep for ages :) ♥

11/02/2013 @06:34
Hmm, I daresay it's almost gym o'clock... :)

11/02/2013 @11:40
Been to see my Solicitor this morning, and told her that there is no fucking chance I'm pissing about re-referring to mediation after nine weeks of no contact or visitation. My solicitor agreed and advised she'll prepare the court papers then and that I should hear back with a court date shortly. In the meantime, I will be contacted by CAFCASS to assess if I pose a risk for my daughter, and if possible they will re-establish contact for me to see Ilysha whilst court gets resolved... :D ♥ #winning

11/02/2013 @18:01
With friends like mine, you don't need to download that 4 Pics game; just refresh your newsfeed.

11/02/2013 @21:30
It is human nature to desire what eludes us.

11/02/2013 @23:09
Bedtime I rate.

12/02/2013 @10:09
I really wish people would take the time to educate themselves before subscribing to all manner of stupidity and spamming it all over my newsfeed, including but not limited to, virus panic warnings, comment chaining "you will die if...", photo-like chains "like this to cure cancer...", and any other internet related hokum "PRIVACY NOTICE in info" etc, etc. [http://www.snopes.com/]

12/02/2013 @18:41
I'm going to probably ruffle some feathers, but fuck it; being brutally honest, I don't give a fuck whether the meat in my food comes from a cow or a horse. As long as it tastes good and doesn't make me ill, it really is all the same to me.

12/02/2013 @22:58
Wish I could afford to buy a copy... but can't even scrape together £3 at the minute laaa. [http://innuendomusicuk.bandcamp.com/album/spilt-ink-lp]

12/02/2013 @23:20
As long as I breathe I'm refusing to leave.
Deny me my rights and you're choosing to bleed.
For the voiceless breed I'll be taking the lead,
Leave me choiceless and see how far I'll proceed.

[http://www.reverbnation.com/anothab/song/16089078-martyr]

13/02/2013 @13:48
How time's change, this time last year I was paying for flowers for my ex, now I'm paying for a Solicitor. It's a strange world.

13/02/2013 @22:13
To the random stranger in the passing vehicle yelling aggressively and incomprehensibly... I applaud you, and I envy your evident superiority. When it comes to hurling fruitless abuse at pedestrians on foot from the security of your friends vehicle which is passing at around 30mph, you are the epitome of a seasoned veteran. Congratulations on having the minerals to be such a triple hard bastard.

13/02/2013 @23:27
Roses are red, violets are blue, Rophynol is cheaper than dinner for two.

14/02/2013 @11:10
Valentine's Day: a corporate holiday created by profit motivated companies to abuse the susceptibility of the naive, and those pressured to conform to social convention. Behind the mask of celebrating love, the majority fall victim to a 'holiday' that is engineered to encourage the spending of copious amounts of cash, on large volumes of cheaply manufactured, tacky and meaningless paraphernalia. Valentine's Day promotes materialism, being superficial and an excuse for opportunistic harlots to trade sex for free gifts and shallow affection. You can call me a cynic, I'll propose that I'm a realist.

14/02/2013 @19:18
Honesty will get you everywhere haha
[http://www.theladbible.com/media/evening-thelb-ladness-pictures-4?image=11]

14/02/2013 @20:15
I love my Ilysha & my Charlie more than words could explain ♥ x [https://soundcloud.com/anothab/anotha-b-blood-water]

14/02/2013 @20:49
I fought with my demons and I forced them out...
A self exorcism of sorts no doubt.../
Back to my former self, now I smile once more.../
Seems I found the willpower I'd been striving for.../
Back on the righteous course, with the nicest thoughts.../
No more self destruction hides behind closed doors.

15/02/2013 @00:32
It's a good job I'm single, I'm too tired to even have a wank never mind making sweet Valentines love to a woman. #starfish

15/02/2013 @20:41
No anal sex required to make me walk funny... footy last night followed up by tonight's cardio gym session has totally destroyed my legs.


15/02/2013 @22:44
Feeling a bit emotional tonight ♥

16/02/2013 @11:11
Those unexpected text messages that really make you smile :) ♥

16/02/2013 @11:35
See you soon arr kid ♥


16/02/2013 @18:00
I think the newspapers are confused, Stoke lads don't have "the biggest dicks", most of the lads are just "big dicks".

16/02/2013 @21:13
This is a big underground UK track ♥


16/02/2013 @22:53
I think I'm losing my mind.../
It seems I've tried so many times/
and I just can't leave you behind.

[http://www.reverbnation.com/anothab/song/16263906-unfinished-business]

16/02/2013 @23:10
The total time it would take to listen to every song I've recorded is over 10hrs.

17/02/2013 @03:17
Unfinished business on my mind, please hush your noise.

17/02/2013 @11:37
Dear God, can you make it be Summer properly now?

17/02/2013 @13:25
Unexpected meeting, heartbreaking conversation. It always seems to be those you care the most about, who have the biggest tragedies; or perhaps it's just because you care so much, that the tragedy just seems even more heartbreaking.

17/02/2013 @18:01
Some girls from my past are destined to stay in my life; we may drift apart, yet we always pull close again at some point. It seems our paths are entwined in ways we can never understand - the memories and experiences we share have formed bonds that distance alone is too weak to ever break... ♥
[http://www.reverbnation.com/anothab/song/16263906-unfinished-business]

17/02/2013 @22:35
Turn Metal Gears to mist with Hadouken ready fists.../
Fatality with tekkers, only Tekken could predict.

17/02/2013 @22:41
I fight for my Princess like italian plumbers.

18/02/2013 @00:06
It'd probably be a good idea to go bed since I'm up for the gym at half 6 haha... shame to end an awesome weekend though, spent with awesome people ♥

18/02/2013 @13:33
I've left so many times, but what I yearn made me learn.../
That until the bridges burn, it's for certain I'll return.

18/02/2013 @22:14
Lovely night :)
[with Terry Scott, Stace Lewis and Mark Jones]

18/02/2013 @22:29
You'd have to be a prize fucking idiot to not sign up to this.
[PS+ 30 DAY FREE TRIAL]

18/02/2013 @22:42
5 minutes into Walking Dead S03E09 and also have S03E10 sat here, and then Allrounda Productions go and provide me with an instrumental that just begs me to write a new track instead.

19/02/2013 @09:03
Deceptive sunshine, it's actually freezing.

19/02/2013 @13:34
That awkward moment when you barrel into your work premises and holler "whagwan!" to your coworkers only to then notice your Director is in the room and looking at you like you're King Bellend himself.

19/02/2013 @18:01
An album sampler for my latest release, "Something More". Please take the time to listen, comment, and if you like what you hear please share and help to promote. A lot of time and effort has gone into creating the music included.


19/02/2013 @22:50
The ending to S03E10 of Walking Dead included me shouting "YES!!!" at my screen and doing the booyakasha finger snap!!

19/02/2013 @23:31
Off to visit the cousin of Death, I haven't spent enough time with him lately. I know this because my body and attitude tell me every damn morning when my alarm goes off.

20/02/2013 @13:51
Life is just an incomplete jigsaw puzzle, and there will always be missing pieces for us to find.

20/02/2013 @21:33
It's not my emotional baggage that keeps me single, it's my fear of yours.

21/02/2013 @00:45
I've been to Hell and drank vodka with the Devil.../ Found my way back and I'm not the kinda rebel.../ That I was back then, changed lots fast when.../ My daughter was conceived, now I'm not 'that' Ben.

21/02/2013 @00:47
I'll surrender to all torture./
To be immortal in the eyes of my daughter.

21/02/2013 @12:17
Every time you piss about on your phone needlessly texting people whilst driving, this is the reality of what you risk causing. Would you want to be responsible for the death or serious injury of those in the car beside you, or even strangers in other vehicles? Think.

21/02/2013 @12:55
I've overcome so much so the judge won't fight me.../
As the gavel falls down I will rise politely.../
And thank him... for rewarding persistence.../
Refusing to bow to the pressures of resistance.../
No more insistence I tolerate her distance.../
Memphis defence how I'm stopping her Pistons.../
Copy all these visions, from my dreams to reality.../
I don't need hospitality, I feed in legality.../
A leaders mentality for breeding morality.

21/02/2013 @2:44:11pm
I could never be employed as remote tech support for the simple fact that some PC users are truly computer illiterate. #goodjesus

21/02/2013 @7:53:01pm
Now I'm not 'that' Ben.

21/02/2013 @19:57
I'll surrender to all torture -
to be immortal in the eyes of my daughter.

[http://www.reverbnation.com/anothab/song/16325058-immortal]

21/02/2013 @21:10
My eyes are emerald at the moment.

21/02/2013 @23:00
Just got back from playing football, and I reckon I'm going have a shower then get myself in bed ready for gym early doors.

22/02/2013 @08:39
Todays breakfast is creatine, protein, nicotine and caffeine. #een

22/02/2013 @18:17
"We built the pyramids!!"

22/02/2013 @19:52
So much to do, so little motivation to do any of it.

23/02/2013 @2:25:44am
I decided give Vanquish a chance... 6hrs later I've got 40% trophy completion, 26 trophies and 100% story mode completion in one sitting. #trophywhore

23/02/2013 @12:55
I don't particularly care whether anybody even listens to the music I create; it is my escape, my coping mechanism, my way of making sense of the world and events around me. I document my life in an audio diary, and when I listen back, I feel empowered by my successes and all the things I have overcome in my 25yrs on this planet. I don't do this for fans, for money, or for fame. I do this for me, and for anyone who cares x
[https://soundcloud.com/anothab/anotha-b-reflections]

23/02/2013 @13:13
I had an alcohol problem fresh out of college.../
A cannabis addiction I refused to acknowledge.../
Developed that one further and got hooked on cocaine.../
And guess what? - EVERY ONE I OVERCAME!


23/02/2013 @13:40
It's really not been easy, Mummy wouldn't let you see me.../
And it broke my heart to pieces; Never been my choice believe me.

[https://soundcloud.com/anothab/never-my-choice]

23/02/2013 @14:32
I have more songs written and recorded by David Evila on my PC, than he does on his own. #dropbox

23/02/2013 @15:29
"Kindness is magic; it's better to be kind than clever or good looking."

23/02/2013 @17:45
Stay moving like a cheetah, treadmill top speeder.../
Task Force Op's leader, pro obstacle beater.../
With my opticals clear I'm the optimal speaker.../
I go over most's head cause I'm so top tier.

[http://www.reverbnation.com/anothab/song/16348444-momentum]

23/02/2013 @22:26
That awkward moment when your friend gives you free access to a game that has the likelihood of stealing the small remaining social existence you have.

24/02/2013 @02:28
One of the hardest things in life is being helpless to stop the suffering of those we care about the most... :( ♥

24/02/2013 @14:23
Download mode enabled: let the internet rape commence.

24/02/2013 @18:38
"Doesn't matter anymore does it, your Mam's dead. But you've got your ring haven't ya? You've got the ring, does it fit alright? Does it fit? Lovely that. You've got the ring, fuck off then. FUCK OFF! As if she needs jewelry, Mr Fucking T!"

24/02/2013 @18:59
The only one thing in this world that you can never change is the past; each moment you're are alive is the chance to begin writing a new future.

24/02/2013 @22:49
If you want somebody to change, give them a reason to want to.

25/02/2013 @09:59
I absolutely hate hearing grown adults whinging about stupid insignificant things on a Monday morning! #pet-hate

25/02/2013 @19:50
It is human nature to desire what we cannot have.

25/02/2013 @20:58
Walking Dead S03E11... let's begin.

26/02/2013 @08:48
Often out of sight, never out of mind... ♥

26/02/2013 @10:38
Good Jesus! Defo worth checking out!! I'm well impressed!
[http://btlondon2012.co.uk/pano.html]

26/02/2013 @19:00
When you tempt I fall for it, I slip and I can't stall it.../
I'm falling for your aura, rest assured you're gorgeous.

[http://www.reverbnation.com/anothab/song/16386765-dont-let-go]

26/02/2013 @19:21
I fight for my Princess like italian plumbers. ♥

26/02/2013 @20:02
Lyrics on video.


26/02/2013 @22:19
Good Jesus, absolutely annihilated myself at Pure Gym... I feel obliterated - hot bath and then bed in the near future I predict! Wouldn't have it any other way though ;)

26/02/2013 @22:43
"Anotha B: I'm Not Okay" - free album download.
[http://anothab.bandcamp.com/]

27/02/2013 @13:33
Just submitted my form C100, C1 and C1A to my Solicitor; to clarify that's the official paperwork for applying for a Contact Order and a Parental Responsibility Order. Such a long winded process but slow and steady wins the race - you are worth it all Ilysha and Daddy is fighting for you Princess ♥


28/02/2013 @09:18
If you want to make your dreams come true, the first thing you have to do is wake up.

28/02/2013 @20:50
My legs still haven't recovered from cardio on Tues night, so I reckon I'm staying in nets tonight at footy.

28/02/2013 @22:57
Rate enjoyed footy this week, what a difference having a decent keeper makes.

28/02/2013 @23:43
Never letting you go, got your hand in my hold.../
Your photo in the wallet in the pocket of my coat.../
Right beside my heart, tattooed on my soul.../
Within the blood in my veins that is flowing so cold.../
Our memories they carry me whenever I'm low.../
My need to honour you means I never move slow.

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