Sunday, 31 March 2013

Monthly Musings: March 2013

An overview of opinions and observations for the month.

01/03/2013 @13:28
It's never who you hope it will be.

01/03/2013 @18:38
Overly cautious, somewhat justifiably.

01/03/2013 @19:37
Today is the 99th day since the last time I visited my daughter, that's 99 days that I've silently cried behind my smile that I've worn. It also means 99 days closer to the day she is back in my arms, back where she belongs. Daddy loves you Princess Ilysha ♥

01/03/2013 @20:22
4 weeks teetotal; Friday night for me means Pure Gym. 8 months in, and it still hasn't got boring ♥

01/03/2013 @23:11
My best motivation in the gym is my brother; nothing makes me push myself harder within those four walls than sibling rivalry ♥

02/03/2013 @14:16
If I had as little as 1p for every time I wanted to smash my phone up the wall, I'd still have been able to afford a replacement by now.

02/03/2013 @22:06
Lovely day seeing Kazza Ellard and Micci, Lucas, Kai and Chloe, and Karen Mansell... then seeing Chris Scott, Angie Scott, Laura Toni, Samantha Scott and Jamie Scott... ♥

02/03/2013 @22:32
Support UK underground music.
[http://shottyhorroh.bandcamp.com/album/dead-bodies-and-junk-food]

03/03/2013 @00:16
Daddy always cares, Daddy holds none above you.../
And no matter what happens - Daddy always loves you.

03/03/2013 @00:44
I take each obstacle in turn, I prioritise the madness.../
Ensure my daughter grows up to be proud of who her Dad is.

03/03/2013 @02:52
3 pints of Stella contains the same amount of calories as a Full English breakfast.

03/03/2013 @03:34
"All my nightmares escaped my head.../
Bar the door, please don't let them in.../
You were never supposed to leave.../
Now my head's splitting at the seams."

03/03/2013 @13:05
Any challenge faced I embrace it to perfection.
It motivates progression, my faith is my weapon.
And it will not falter.

03/03/2013 @14:14
It's almost 3 and a half years since I snapped my hand, and even now it's still sensitive to being knocked, and tingles when touched.

03/03/2013 @19:30
"I've come home."


03/03/2013 @19:32
Loneliness leaves lives lusting love.

03/03/2013 @20:31
"I never made promises lightly.../
And there have been some that I've broken.../
But I swear in the days still left.../
We'll walk in fields of gold."



03/03/2013 @20:54
It's crazy just how much songs can cut right to your heart, and strip away all the layers of concrete you buried the pain behind, reminding you just how emotionally fractured you really are behind it all... painful memories flooding back to the surface, and I unashamedly let the tears fall for you. Chunk, Ricky and at the moment my daughter Ilysha - so many songs just remind me of the extent of everything we have all lost :'( ♥

03/03/2013 @22:15
Clearly perfect, my own little girl.../
If this world is my oyster, then she is my pearl.

04/03/2013 @06:13
Coffee and cereal before I hit the gym :)

04/03/2013 @09:22
I love feeling fresh on a Monday morning, it's like a massive "fuck you" to convention.

04/03/2013 @18:55
"We all dream for a reason - every single person has a purpose, a meaning.../ It’s up to you to seek it - the sky’s a lot higher than the ceiling.../ So reach out grab it, the world is yours, have it.../ Hold it, in both hands, and mould it into your own planet." - Mic Righteous Official ♥

04/03/2013 @21:58
Stop telling people what you're capable of, and start showing them.

04/03/2013 @23:21
Guilty by association; your choice in associates means I refuse to associate with you. If you wish to surround yourself with poisonous and deceitful people, then crack on by all means, just don't expect me to willingly be associated with you. To clarify, don't friend request me if you associate with people I dislike - the forthcoming decline is inevitable. Thanks.

05/03/2013 @06:40
This gym workout isn't going to complete itself, you don't get in shape by sleeping and staying in bed!

05/03/2013 @19:39
Laptop maintenance because I'm a good friend :)

05/03/2013 @21:50
*imagine this is a football related status so I can feign interest in the name of pseudo alpha male requirements*

05/03/2013 @22:26
The more you care, the more it hurts.

05/03/2013 @23:39
"It takes humility to remember who we are".

06/03/2013 @07:51
You keep telling me I can't, and I'll keep showing you I can.

06/03/2013 @11:22
Progress, no matter how slow, is still progress.

06/03/2013 @12:46
Proactive is always better than reactive.

07/03/2013 @00:31
There's a method to the madness./
Took a hammer to my phone, a sledgehammer to the sadness./
Smashed it to pieces, kept stepping through this labyrinth./
Eyes on the prize, shining bright till he grabs it.

07/03/2013 @12:56
Today is gradually going more and more down the shitter. Not enough hours in a day when things begin going pearshaped.

07/03/2013 @19:54

07/03/2013 @20:33
"Getting a text message and thinking, “Okay, does that mean they are really busy, or are they blowing me off?” Not hearing back from someone you’re interested in, and then seeing them post a photo of a pizza on Instagram."

07/03/2013 @21:12
This track is so hauntingly beautiful, and so emotionally powerful. I truly can't explain how much I love this, I listen to this daily at least once but more than often a lot more. ♥


08/03/2013 @01:05
Motivation is as paramount to success as ability.

08/03/2013 @18:36
The last two days have been very stressful and demanding at work, but the sense of achievement for hitting all deadlines provides adequate reward :)

08/03/2013 @19:16
The latest episode of Spartacus War of the Damned is boss as fuck - I'm loving the fact my favourite shows are all finally deciding to stop treading water and up the ante!

08/03/2013 @19:53
"You are the last of the ladies.../
You are the one who can save me.../
You are, you are."


08/03/2013 @22:03
"I wasn't looking for this. What is this? I don't know."

08/03/2013 @22:39
Hahaha! Watching this video? Everybody got time fo' dat!


08/03/2013 @22:50
Wondering whether I/we can squeeze in 20hrs of viewing before the end of the month to rewatch S1&S2 of Game of Thrones ahead of S3 starting!! Hmmm! [with Terry Scott]

09/03/2013 @00:05
"I'm playing with fire, but you are what I desire."

09/03/2013 @02:50
Can't wait until I can actually kiss you goodnight in person, rather than just your photo. Daddy loves you Princess Ilysha, and he will never stop fighting for you - that is a promise he will die before he breaks ♥

09/03/2013 @13:12
Aziz Ansari is a comedy genius.

09/03/2013 @13:39
Physically shaking as I've just read the letter posted through my front door. I have finally got a court date to sort out this situation with my daughter Ilysha! :) ♥ - roll on April 10th! Now I just need interim contact arranging and I will be over the moon! Daddy is right here Princess, I told you I was going nowhere ♥ x x x

09/03/2013 @15:02
"ASDA are cheapest. However, ASDA are not 10% cheaper than Tesco, Sainsbury's, Morrisons and Waitrose, on your comparable grocery shopping. As such you are entitled to a voucher for £1.28." Well, I guess £1.28 is better than nothing haha.
[http://www.asdapriceguarantee.co.uk/]

09/03/2013 @15:09
"I came to spread love.../
Don't make me shed blood!"

10/03/2013 @13:04
I wish the Mother of my own daughter was as amazing as any of my own Mum's. My birth Mum, Sheila Scott, the best I could ever hope for - words cannot even begin to explain how much she means to me, my rock, my shoulder and my crutch. My second Mum, Dawn Wheels Owen, raised me like her own as far back as I can remember, and always been there when I've needed her with reciprocated love, support and encouragement. My Stepmum Angie Scott, looked after me and did all the things a Mum should for me whilst I lived with her and my Dad. And my (almost) Mother in Law hehe, Kazza Ellard, welcomed me in with open arms, always there for me and never turned her back on me. Love you all, and hope you all have a lovely day ♥ x x x

10/03/2013 @14:29
"Other day I got an ASBO order!/
And I think it's well outta order!/
All my neighbours throwing a fit!/
So I told them 'SUCK MY DICK!'/
Then I told them 'I GOT THE POWER!'/
And I turned the music up louder!/
All night until 6 in the morning!/
Old bastards they're just boring!!"


10/03/2013 @19:34
"I'm scared as Hell to let my little baby grow up in this big world."

11/03/2013 @06:45
It's that time again, better get my ass to the gym! Eat clean, train dirty!!

11/03/2013 @09:20
Hello Monday morning, it’s always nice when you arrive and I feel fresh - which is every week lately :)

11/03/2013 @13:30
"If you can fill the unforgiving minute - with sixty seconds' worth of distance run."

11/03/2013 @18:21
Spartacus, Crixus and Gannicus are fucking bad ass. Talk about a ruthless trio.

11/03/2013 @21:03
"If you don't have the mental capacity to be that obsessed about what you tryna get, then motherfucker you ever gonna have it!" - CT The Trainer


11/03/2013 @21:07
Started the day with a chest workout at the gym, seems fitting to finish it with a home freeweights session :)

11/03/2013 @21:51
This is workout music.


11/03/2013 @22:22
*LONG STATUS ALERT* - Those of you who know me properly, who've seen me before, during and after I hit rockbottom and almost chucked my entire life away, I just hope you can see the change in me that I feel. I'm not going to go off on a big ass recount of everything that has happened in the last couple of years, because quite frankly I like to think those of you who care already know what has happened and how badly I coped with it all. I just wanted to say that I truly feel like myself again lately, and I feel like my life is back in my own hands again. I'm an entire 5 months clean of all drugs now, and it was only one slip up the last time, otherwise it'd be 7 months clean. I haven't had a single drop of alcohol in over 5 weeks now, and I keep my head up and stay positive despite all the heartache and pain in my personal life over my beautiful little Princess. If you're still reading, then you are the one's who this status is for, because you are the one's I want to sincerely thank from the bottom of my heart. Without the strength, support and belief that you all provided then I probably wouldn't be here today. I honestly believe that. I owe so many people so much, and I know that I can never repay or compensate you all for what you have given me; you gave me my life back. The only thing I can do now is be the absolute best that I can, and to never let your help go to waste. I promise that I will never go down that dark path that I did ever again, and I promise you will never need to be there to drag me back out of it again. I owe you so much, and I will never forget what you have all done for me. I love you and am so grateful. I know who I need to be now, and every day is spent trying to be exactly that ♥

11/03/2013 @22:30
"I've climbed the highest mountains, I've swum the coldest seas.../
There ain't a thing I've faced that's been too much for me.../
Nobody's gonna see me coming, nobody's gonna hear a sound.../
No matter how hard they're trying, nobody's gonna bring me down."

I swear I can relate to all the lyrics on this song so much ♥


11/03/2013 @22:43
Hearing my Godson Charlie say "Baby Ilysha" when he see's a picture of my daughter still makes me smile :') ♥

11/03/2013 @23:04
I love reading old texts :) ♥

12/03/2013 @13:32
Looking forward to the gym later, but it seems my body isn't haha.

12/03/2013 @18:45
Brown rice, chicken and broccoli, ahead of smashing up a brutal arms and shoulders session at Pure Gym later! :)

12/03/2013 @20:52
My body better be so thankful tomorrow is a rest day after tonight, if not then I'll feel like I haven't earned one! No pain, no gain! [with Terry Scott at Pure Gym]

12/03/2013 @23:20
You either want it, or you don't. It's that simple. If you truly want it, you need to spend more time doing something about it than talking about it. If you don't truly want it, you need to do everyone a favour, yourself included, and stop pretending you do. The harsh truth I've learned is that good things do not come to those who wait - good things come to those who fight for them. If you aren't waking up in the morning with the hunger for it, and going to bed exhausted from it, then in all honesty you can't say you want it that much. When you want it enough, it consumes you, and in one way or another, your every waking minute is affected by it, geared towards it. Like I said, you either want it, or you don't.

13/03/2013 @06:54
The early bird gets the worm.

13/03/2013 @08:35
Well... that was a phone call I didn't want this morning. Bad things and good people, they always go hand in hand.

13/03/2013 @22:10
Never underestimate the massive impact that your small seemingly insignificant actions make. Ripples in ponds can cause tsunamis in oceans.

13/03/2013 @23:32
The best things in life truly are free.

14/03/2013 @07:36
I could get used to blue skies and sunshine again :)

14/03/2013 @13:30
Treated myself to a chicken tikka & lettuce baguette for dinner... it sounds pretty sad that I consider eating that as "treating myself" haha.

14/03/2013 @18:59
"If I had a genie, I wouldn't wish for a car with a TV.../
Or pornstars in bra's and bikinis."

14/03/2013 @23:05
Rate enjoyed footy tonight, even if we lost by a couple. Well proud of our team.

15/03/2013 @18:30
Compulsory 'going to the gym again' status... :D

15/03/2013 @21:24
Wild pacific red salmon, fresh sliced red bell pepper and brown rice. #eatclean

15/03/2013 @23:23
Casually just finishing up the last bit of coding for the new website for my work since I couldn't get it all done during my shift as planned. #dedication

16/03/2013 @00:58
So glad @Dawn Wheels Owen recommended I watch "Terra Nova", just finished watching the first series, 5 episodes back to back because it really does keep you hooked! Very "Lost"esque in my opinion.


16/03/2013 @01:14
Big tune. Got so much love for @Mic Righteous


16/03/2013 @01:36
Finished coding the work website, intended it to be done a lot earlier, but being a perfectionist often prevents adhering to deadlines haha.

16/03/2013 @01:59
I once naively believed that if a Father wasn't involved in his childs life then he was a shitty person. Experience has taught me that sometimes the Father isn't a shitty person at all, sometimes they just have really shitty taste in selecting Mothers for their children.

16/03/2013 @09:51
Ahhh Saturday morning, a day for a lie-in. The fact I'm writing this status now is a clear indication that my idea of a lie-in, and my body's idea of a lie-in are two completely different things.

16/03/2013 @11:25
So yeh, I think most of my day is going to be spent sorting out my PC since I have literally filled my 1TB internal master HDD, my 250GB internal slave HDD, my 1TB WD passport drive and my 1.5TB external HDD. #filesystemfailure

16/03/2013 @15:01
Lovely catch up with a beautiful lady :)
[with Leigh Leigh]

16/03/2013 @18:03
Dear brother, I still call you that with pride.../
Rough around the edges with a heart of gold inside.

[http://www.reverbnation.com/anothab/song/16605658-dear-brother]

16/03/2013 @18:39
Now I'm living life properly, success is a given, try stopping me.

16/03/2013 @18:48
Boredom is often mistaken for hunger or loneliness.

16/03/2013 @22:09
Nowadays everything is a-ok.../
A year ago today I had a daughter on the way.../
And now she's here and clearly perfect - my own little girl.../
If this world is my oyster, then she is my pearl.

love you Ilysha ♥

16/03/2013 @22:40
If you consider yourself a friend of mine and have never taken the time to listen to any of my music, then I'm actually very disappointed in you for not even giving it a chance.


17/03/2013 @02:34
Haha, brilliant.


17/03/2013 @03:50
Think I should go to bed, casually been playing Pokemon Blue on a Gameboy emulator for the last hour. #geekmode #nostalgic

17/03/2013 @14:04
And that my friends, is what you call a lie-in. #10hrkip

17/03/2013 @18:32
Brown rice, chicken and broccoli, served up with a creatine shake. Meal of champions.

17/03/2013 @22:55
I regret nothing.

18/03/2013 @00:22
I wish you were here, or I were there, or that we were together anywhere... ♥

18/03/2013 @18:13
Ahh got to love it when plans completely change; "gym tonight and tomorrow morning" just became "gym tomorrow night and weds morning" haha.

18/03/2013 @20:58
Looking through my old college work, and it is hilarious. Some of the things I wrote for my assignments is comedy gold. So arrogant and blunt! Dan Heath

18/03/2013 @22:07
"Previously on AMC's 'The Walking Dead'..." ;)

18/03/2013 @23:17
Looking back at University work is depressing, mainly because I did so well at it, and then never actually pursued it further. I actually miss the challenge of deadlines, and pushing myself to exceed my own self-imposed idea of limitations. I thrive in education and learning new things, and having something at the end that you've created or learned to be proud of. I wish I could motivate myself to focus on projects of my own.

19/03/2013 @12:52
Hello new phone, I've been looking forward to meeting you :)

20/03/2013 @00:27
Highly anticipated. And this trailer is dope as fuck!


20/03/2013 @23:27
"In our most paranoid moments, we fear that everyone is talking about us."

21/03/2013 @00:48
It's all smiles and sunshine on my side of the rainbow :)

21/03/2013 @01:44
Fucking boss!

21/03/2013 @18:42
A positive life is all about constantly trying to better yourself and improve your conditions.

21/03/2013 @21:11
Next level flow.


21/03/2013 @23:01
Footy in the snow is being followed up with a hot bath :)

21/03/2013 @23:46
If you want to find the positives in life, you must first turn you back on the negatives.

22/03/2013 @00:18
Inspired.
[http://www.tomelgon.co.uk/]

22/03/2013 @09:23
Global warming? Yeah, ok. It's so warm.

22/03/2013 @17:56
Success is undoubtedly the best revenge. Don't waste time arguing or crying about it - rise above it and use your energy productively. Nothing will piss your haters off more than seeing you succeed.

22/03/2013 @19:31
If you want it, you find a way. #hack

22/03/2013 @20:25
http://kat.ph/ goes down.
http://www.kickassunblock.info/ goes up.
Got to love us hackers... ;)

22/03/2013 @23:32
When everything is going wrong, stay focused on doing what's right.

23/03/2013 @10:35
So far this weekend, the snow has affected 100% of my plans. I think this calls for being spontaneous :)

23/03/2013 @11:28
Willa Holland is quite the little cutie in Arrow... ♥

23/03/2013 @12:39
A hostage to addictions that were lining the pages.
[http://www.reverbnation.com/anothab/song/16687130-belief-snippet]

23/03/2013 @13:04
When you feel like complaining about all the negatives in your life, pause for a moment and appreciate all the positives. Too many people complain constantly about insignificant things, that at the end of the day aren't even important - use some empathy and compare your problems with other peoples, perhaps then you'd realise that whatever you're bitching about isn't really that big of a deal.

23/03/2013 @14:32
That moment when a main character of a TV series you love is in a life or death situation, and you think "ahh they'll get out of it, they always do". And then they don't. 

23/03/2013 @18:48
Focus on enjoying the journey, not simply on rushing to the destination; don't miss out on appreciating the little things, because it's the little things that make the big differences.

23/03/2013 @21:18
Arya Stark... (:

23/03/2013 @22:41
Cheeky install of MX Player on my Galaxy S3, and now I can watch TV series and films on it ;

24/03/2013 @00:51
Just one last episode before bed I think... 6 episodes in a row should be enough for tonight haha :)

24/03/2013 @11:54
7/20... let us continue.

24/03/2013 @12:52
"Hear my words, and bear witness to my vow. Night gathers and now my watch begins. It shall not end until my death. I shall take no wife, hold no lands, father no children. I shall wear no crowns and win no glory. I shall live, and die at my post. I am the sword in the darkness, I am the watcher on the walls. I am the shield that guards the realms of men. I pledge my life and honor to the Night’s Watch. For this night and all the nights to come."

24/03/2013 @14:16
We ignorantly repeat our lies into the mirror of our subconscious until we believe them all wholeheartedly, until we convince ourselves that we are not to blame. Our ignorance is our bliss… and ultimately our undoing.

24/03/2013 @15:26
Seeing Eddard Stark get beheaded for a second time is just as shocking; forgot how big the executioners sword was, no innuendo intended.

24/03/2013 @16:03
"Sometimes people find themselves achieving victories that are empty - successes that have come at the expense of things that were far more valuable to them. If your ladder is not leaning against the right wall, every step you take gets you to the wrong place faster."

24/03/2013 @17:05
Just bumped into my old mate Kyle Hicks in the shop looking as fresh as death haha.

24/03/2013 @18:56
You know when you're growing up, and you don't like a particular food/condiment, do you ever try it when you're older to see if your tastebuds have adapted and you now like it? I only ask because I've just reaffirmed that soy sauce still tastes as shit as I remember.

24/03/2013 @19:39
Impatient.


24/03/2013 @22:12
Sometimes I hate being single, but then I remember my past experiences with that crazy little thing called love and laugh at the naïve notion of a happy relationship!

25/03/2013 @09:28
Fresh as a daisy thanks to that gym session before work :)

25/03/2013 @13:36
Well, that was a pleasant conversation with CAFCASS, cannot wait to hear what the Mother of my daughter tells them. Something tells me the two sides will not agree.

25/03/2013 @18:22
Nothing cuter than someone who makes you smile without even trying ♥

25/03/2013 @19:45
"The more people you love, the weaker you are. You'll do things for them that you know you shouldn't do. You'll act the fool to make them happy, to keep them safe. Love no-one but your children."

25/03/2013 @21:11
You could be a stranger to my eyes, and yet my heart beats for you all the same ♥

25/03/2013 @21:46
Behind my smile, is everything you will never understand.

25/03/2013 @23:39
So S1 ended with Daenerys' dragons screeching loudly, and S2 ended with the White Walkers screaming loudly... I sincerely hope S3 ends with Joffrey dying loudly. The cunt.

26/03/2013 @09:20
Being successful isn't determined by a single event, it's the result of consistent progression and commitment to achieving your ambitions.

26/03/2013 @13:29
Time is more valuable than money, spend it wisely and only invest it in the things that are truly worth the cost.

26/03/2013 @18:23
So, my first impression of the new bus station? A diamond in a pile of dog shit.

26/03/2013 @19:13
Everything I do is just to make you proud.
I'm hoping you can hear me so I sing it loud.
♫ ♥

26/03/2013 @20:35
I'm suffocating... deep within I hate it.../
I'm not evasive, and I'll never escape it.../
I can't erase it, it's time that I face it.../
The greatest love of all was the love that we wasted.

26/03/2013 @22:29
Now that was a proper arm workout, good Jesus... had to even drop a few sets because I'd repped to failure... my arms physically couldn't lift anymore haha!!

26/03/2013 @22:35
Snapchat me @anothab haha, swear this app was designed for trolling people!
[with Sam Sylvester and Charl Malpass]

26/03/2013 @23:58
Was it always the case you'd vacate from the start?/
Don't mistake this for hate, just these days faced are hard.

[http://www.reverbnation.com/anothab/song/16731147-love-we-wasted-snippet]

27/03/2013 @09:12
Every day is another chance to achieve, another chance to make a difference and another chance to better your position. Your life is your own, make each day count.

27/03/2013 @23:36
The greatest love of all, was the love that we wasted.
[http://www.reverbnation.com/anothab/song/16731147-love-we-wasted-snippet]

28/03/2013 @00:08
You've succeeded in breaking my heart.../ Was it always the case you'd vacate from the start?

28/03/2013 @00:10
We used to text, back and forth, forth and back.../
Guess somewhere along the path our communications lapsed./
Now we lack what we had, yet we act like we're glad.../
We attack, bash and lash out for the fact that we're sad.

28/03/2013 @09:14
"Bidding for your love, get my Ebay on."

28/03/2013 @13:33
Ahh, payday lunch... Spoons then Subway.. ;D

29/03/2013 @02:57
Few scoops and I'm ruined, proof in the pudding that I can't hack it these days haha
[with Matthew Handy, Natalie Tweedie, Hayley Indyk and Hayley Fenton]

29/03/2013 @14:18
Elisha Cuthbert. Nuf said.

29/03/2013 @21:42
Epic.


29/03/2013 @22:56
"The new Hansel and Gretel film is brilliant" said nobody ever.

29/03/2013 @23:34
Watching Ed Stark and John the Bastard... but this isn't Game of Thrones.

30/03/2013 @00:09
Adelaide Clemens is waaay cute... :')

30/03/2013 @14:21
I only hope you respect that I gave it my best.../
And if that wasn't good enough, all my tears, blood and sweat.../
It still was everything, gave it my all till none was left.

30/03/2013 @14:28
I can't erase it, it's time that I face it.../
The greatest love of all was the love that we wasted.

[https://soundcloud.com/anothab/love-we-wasted]

30/03/2013 @18:51
Don't panic, I've just spoke with my 'dead' brother and it turns out he isn't actually dead...
[with Stace Lewis, Dawn Wheels Owen, Sheila Scott and Mark Jones]

30/03/2013 @20:44
root/.workspace/.garbage.

30/03/2013 @21:57
Decided give this "Chronicle" a chance. It was a fucking good shout.


30/03/2013 @23:14
I'm here for a reason.../
I'm here for a purpose.../
I'm here for you Ilysha.../
God knows I deserve it!!
[http://www.reverbnation.com/anothab/song/16778757-hurricane]

31/03/2013 @00:31
That moment when you hesitantly tag photo's, suspecting they'll be untagged shortly haha.

31/03/2013 @02:32
Before reading this status, you need to understand that I am not superstitious by any means. That being said, I've just been lying submerged in the bath with my head under the water (I do that when in deep thought sometimes) when I hear a loud thud - I sit up in the bath and notice that somehow my phone has managed to go from being lay flat on top of my toilet seat to now being across the other side of the room by my sink on the floor. No notifications on my phone, so no reason it would've vibrated or anything... I'm gen up having a 'WTAF' moment.

31/03/2013 @11:12
Cardio, weights and protein shakes!

31/03/2013
Tomorrow morning, the gym is getting beastmoded.

31/03/2013 @14:20
Classic.


31/03/2013 @14:43
If Snapchat were a person, I'd be proposing marriage. Fucking hilarious.

31/03/2013 @14:57
I fought aggressively, torched every memory.../
Eventually located who I'm meant to be; not who I'd pretend to be.../
Ended the drugs, just before the drugs ended me.

31/03/2013 @19:17
I don't know when I realised it for the first time, but lately I've remained constantly aware of how boring my life is most of the time.

31/03/2013 @20:29
"Oh, what I would give... not to stumble but to really fall in love."

31/03/2013 @21:22
I don’t want somebody perfect. I want someone who has felt pain. Someone who has lost people close, felt the emptiness. Someone who appreciates the hollow space left once they’ve gone. I want someone who has been hurt. Someone cut deep by people they held dear, and truly knows how it feels. Someone who has had their heart broken by those they've trusted the most. I want someone who understands. Someone who knows a dark history can make a person shine brighter. Someone who knows that a bad past does not mean a bad future. I want someone who can accept me. Someone who sees all my emotional baggage, down to the last fracture. Someone who sees all my flaws, and isn’t afraid by any of them. I want someone who I can depend on. Someone who won’t walk away from me when I need them most. Someone who sees how broken I am, but how hard I’m trying to fix myself. I want someone as imperfect as me, Someone won’t expect me to be perfect either. Someone with whom my imperfections fit perfectly. I want someone who probably doesn’t exist. So instead I sit alone, and dream of what if.

31/03/2013 @21:56
But they mistake me for somebody else!/
I'm a hurricane! My impact is felt!

[http://www.reverbnation.com/anothab/song/16778757-hurricane]

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