Dear Ilysha,
I got to see you again today :)
Daddy was a bit worried this week because he got to the Contact Centre at about 9.30am, and at almost 10am, you were still nowhere to be seen! Daddy was waiting inside impatiently when Mummy came hurrying in with you in her arms apologising whilst you smiled straight at me looking mischievous :)
We signed in and went into the play area - Mummy's schizophrenia was working in Daddy's favour this week, she was speaking to Daddy perfectly fine like nothing had ever happened - but Daddy is never the one to provoke an argument so he just went along with it. Mummy explained you had not long woken up and hadn't had your breakfast yet... :D - Daddy was grinning at this point because he knew what that meant! Until now Mummy had always fed you before we spent time together, but this week I was going to get to feed you! :D
Daddy went and fetched the high chair and set it up, and Mummy explained about your breakfast routine. She had made you a big bowl of tropical mushed up puree, you had a raspberry yoghurt and a bottle of water. Mummy explained you found the tropical a bit tangy, but that you did like it :) - I she said bye to us both, and left with a smile saying she'd see us in a couple of hours - that's right, this week I got to have you to myself for the full session without Mummy there with us! :')
I sat you in the high chair and fastened the five point harness, and positioned you facing me - you were looking at me looking confused hehe. I got your bowl of tropical out and you started kicking excitedly with your eyes lit up - I guess you were a hungry little girl! I was feeding you, but I quickly learned the creche environment is very distracting, as you kept turning to see what was going on around with you! I had to constantly chase your mouth with the spoon! Then when you did face me, you grabbed the bowl and dipped your fingers in your food little mucky pup! I sucked your fingertips to get the food off them and you laughed in delight hehe :')
You ate nearly all your food but towards the end seemed disinterested, so I left the last bit - too be fair the bowl had more food in it than I eat these days! :') - you loved your yoghurt, I didn't have to chase you for that! I did a good job of not decorating your whole face with your food hehe :) - then you had your bottle of water, but you're a lazy little bugger and wouldn't hold it up yourself, so Daddy held it for you. I got you out the high chair and cradled you whilst you were drinking out your bottle and you were lying back looking up at me inquisitively :')
I carried you with me & took the high chair back, and then we came back to play. I'd brought all your toys with me again this week, and you happily picked up where we'd left off last time! It was like we'd never left. You still liked eating all the toys, and you still were obsessed with my boots haha, random little things that amuse me :) - and you had a little chat with me again this week, babbling away whilst we were playing :) - you kept pulling your socks off this week too! I must've put them back on about 10 times hehe!
I got a brilliant video of you giggling your head off as we played - I was rocking you and letting you push off the floor with your little feetsies, and chucking you in the air and catching you, and flying you around - you were giggling constantly and it was so adorable, the cutest giggle I've ever heard in my whole life :) - and just seeing you smiling and happy is the greatest feeling I've ever known.
You showed me your new trick this week, my clever little girl had learned how to roll over! So I was lying on the floor with you rolling over with you, encouraging you to practice :D - you'd end up on your tummy and reach out for me making little grunts trying to push yourself forward with your little legs and I'd reach for you to get you to push forward towards me :')- other parents were giggling as I rolled round the floor with you - I must have looked crazy hehe!
Towards the end of our time together you were starting to get tired, you were rubbing your eyes and yawning, so I picked you up and walked around with you, rocking you and comforting you. You were looking up at me, smiling peacefully - such an amazing feeling, just holding you, and knowing you are mine, and seeing the love in your eyes - nothing makes Daddy feel more invincible.
Mummy came to fetch you at the end of the session, and was still civil with Daddy - I explained you hadn't finished all your food and Mummy said that sometimes you don't manage eat it all so not to worry. We discussed your new skill of rolling, and Mummy told me you were getting good now at home, that you'd rolled halfway across the room the other day :') - Daddy's clever little girl. I gave you a kiss and a cuddle, and told you I loved you and that I'd see you next week, and said goodbye to your Mummy, and then came the saddest part when I have to watch Mummy take you away for another week.
I love you so much my little Princess, every time I see you, it reminds me why I fight for you, why I will never give up on you. Every second we are together makes the pain when we're apart worth it. You are truly my everything - and I can't wait to proudly watch you grow up :') - I'm counting down the minutes to seeing you again already... the weekends can't come quick enough anymore, and I wish the days between away until I can see you once more.
I love you Ilysha, my daughter, my Princess, my world. I'm going nowhere...
Daddy x x x
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