An overview of opinions and observations for the month.
01/07/2013 @13:28
Every Monday I can't help but proudly go around
my work showing everybody the latest pictures of my beautiful daughter hehe
:') ♥
01/07/2013 @23:33
Back to my former self now I smile once more,
it seems I found the
willpower I'd been striving for.../
Back on the righteous course, with
the nicest thoughts,
and no more self destruction hides behind closed
doors.
01/07/2013 @23:57
Loneliness is the only negative of being single.
02/07/2013 @01:41
Hauntingly beautiful music... absolutely in love
with @Radical Face ♥
02/07/2013 @18:25
Do you like the films of Jude Law?
02/07/2013 @20:25
When my hands are both occupied, I use my elbow,
forehead, bottom lip or nose to operate light switches and door handles.
02/07/2013 @21:34
Some people are just fucking poison, I'm
physically shaking!!
[feeling aggressive]
02/07/2013 @23:05
I am so, so grateful for all the good people in
my life these days, I really don't know where I'd be without my true friends
and family.
02/07/2013 @23:50
"And I said, this life ain’t no love song while I marched on
blindly."
03/07/2013 @13:30
When it rains, it pours.
04/07/2013 @01:32
It's been a while since I've had trouble
sleeping... #headfucked
[feeling helpless]
04/07/2013 @09:17
"My heart will be blacker than your eyes, when I'm through with you."
04/07/2013 @20:21
Nothing is ever simple, and no road is ever
clear of obstacles; hard times will make you stronger, and the obstacles you
overcome will make you wiser. Do not fall into the darkness, get back to your
feet, and find the light wherever you can.
04/07/2013 @22:28
A person is defined by their actions. Who you
are, is entirely up to you.
05/07/2013 @00:15
Got my iPod on listening to Radical Face, and
I'm cleaning my house at 00:15. I think it's safe to say I grew up somewhere
along the way.
[feeling strange]
05/07/2013 @01:30
Long day tomorrow, think it's time I go
starfish.
[feeling tired]
05/07/2013 @10:27
That beautiful feeling when you can roll out of
bed at almost half 10 on a Friday...
[feeling refreshed]
05/07/2013 @10:45
Off out to grab a few bits & pieces for my
Princess Ilysha, and meeting up with my brother.
[feeling fresh with
Christopher Downs]
05/07/2013 @21:52
I'm here with bandages, a mop and a smile,
trying my best to fix this mess.
05/07/2013 @23:54
This week has been a clusterfuck of bad news,
roll on better days.
[feeling overwhelmed]
06/07/2013 @09:05
I awoke this morning hoping it was all a bluff,
one that I was prepared to call. Unfortunately not, so it's now 3 times in 9
weeks that my beautiful Princess Ilysha has been supposedly too poorly for me
to see her. Her Mother seems to be clearly doing a brilliant job of looking
after her.
06/07/2013 @19:01
#verystrongmong
06/07/2013 @21:04
Having a bbq... no food, just a bbq.
[with
Stace Lewis and Mark Jones]
07/07/2013 @02:09
Every day my skies turn grey,
my daughter makes it all okay...
07/07/2013 @11:40
Hmm, what to do today? Blackpool maybe with my
Godson?
[feeling carefee with Dawn Wheels Owen and Sheila Scott]
07/07/2013 @22:31
Had an absolutely lovely day, even managed to
get my Char-char comfortable with going into the sea :') - he had a whale of a
time, no pun intended :P - been a glorious day full of sunshine, smiles,
laughs and brilliant company - exactly what I needed after last week!! Thanks
for a lovely day Sheila & Dawn, hope Charlie has settled okay, he should
be exhausted because Lord knows he's worn me out!! ♥
[feeling fantastic]
08/07/2013 @13:27
Melting. Can't wait for a cold shower when I get
home.
08/07/2013 @21:20
I have no sympathy for ally NPC's who run off
like fucking idiots and get massacred. They fucking deserve to die. Got no
time for a fucking #LeeroyJenkins on my team.
08/07/2013 @22:32
"I don't fear death or dying,
I only fear never trying.
I am
whatever I am,
only God can judge me."
08/07/2013 @23:36
Jesus fucking Christ #Dexter! You've created a
monster!
[feeling shocked]
09/07/2013 @00:38
The best feeling I've ever known is seeing my
children smile, and hearing my children laugh. I love you so much Ilysha &
Charlie, you pair mean the absolute world to me ♥
[feeling loved]
09/07/2013 @13:32
Cheeky pint of Stella for my lunch, blame the
weather!
[feeling drowsy at The Reginald Mitchell - Wetherspoons]
09/07/2013 @21:49
I've now exceeded 90hrs in #Amalur and I am
pwning every single enemy like they're n00bs... I think it may be time to
start the 2nd play through to clean up the last 4 in game trophies & take
the Platinum.
[feeling likeabawse]
09/07/2013 @22:43
I'm sat still, and yet I'm still sweating like
I'm in a sauna.
10/07/2013 @00:10
From a bawse to a n00b in the time it took to
start a New Game!
[with Christopher Downs and David Michael Lawton]
10/07/2013 @09:18
Daisies haven't got a patch on me.
[feeling
fresh]
10/07/2013 @21:50
Sometimes loneliness makes me miss being in a
relationship, but then I realise all I miss is the companionship, and the
reassurance that I'm not completely broken.
10/07/2013 @22:42
As if they've dyed the beautiful water up Blue
Lagoon in Buxton dark black because it's caustic with high pH levels!! [http://www.bbc.co.uk/news/uk-england-nottinghamshire-22843481]
10/07/2013 @23:20
Reality will never be as good as dreams, because
if it was, what would we have to look forward to? #philosophy
[feeling
reflective]
11/07/2013 @00:07
I thought that I'd shaken the darkness,
Believed I'd made it through
the hardship with just scarred wrists.
And marked fists from a past of
hitting those targets.
Emotionally vacant, unmistakably heartless.
But
I'm back in this apartment,
blood staining the carpets.
And no
recollection how this situation started.
I'm checking text messages to
start with...
Just a large list of calm shit, mostly harmless...
[feeling dark]
11/07/2013 @00:13
'Focusing on my daughter, got my life in order, so I could be there for her.../ And nothing is ever gonna stop me.../ The road has been rocky but I've handled it properly./ Jumped through the hoops, overlooked all the lies.../ Crossed all the t's and I've dotted all the i's.../ Don't seem so surprised at my heart and my patience.../ In this for the win not just participation.' #anothab
11/07/2013 @00:22
Or PS3/GYM/WORK.
11/07/2013 @00:26
This is fucking brilliant! If you're a parent or
have had active involvement in raising children, read this and you'll
relate... [http://www.babybargains.com.au/bels-blog/10-parenting-rules-and-i-broke-them-all/]
11/07/2013 @01:00
You know it's hot when you shower before going
to bed, and as soon as you get up. And maybe in between too if you have time.
11/07/2013 @09:21
It's that time again folks, let another day of
work commence... one day closer to the weekend, and one day closer to seeing
my Princess!!
[feeling impatient]
11/07/2013 @13:24
Sunshine brings out all the crumpet, walking
around Hanley is a right eye party today.
11/07/2013 @18:12
After a long and hot day at work, I really don't
want to go the gym. So I'm going a beer garden instead... :)
[with Terry
Scott]
11/07/2013 @23:08
"Because you're mine, I walk the line."
12/07/2013 @13:25
4hrs until the weekend commences... not that I'm
impatient!
12/07/2013 @18:37
If I've made plans for tomorrow with you, then
you will need remind me because I can't remember...
[feeling
alzeiheimery]
13/07/2013 @09:10
Getting ready to have all my worries, cares and
concerns fade for 2hrs, and to remind me why I fight, and why failure is not
even an option... ♥
[feeling super]
13/07/2013 @12:17
Feeling untouchable once more... :') ♥
13/07/2013 @13:46
Beer garden? The weather says definitely yes,
but the bank, in association with my lack of friends says probably not.
#storyofmylife
14/07/2013 @11:12
Absolutely awesome night yesterday with old
friends I don't see enough of...
[feeling rough]
14/07/2013 @11:30
"So wake me up when it's all over.../
When I'm wiser and I'm
older.../
All this time I was finding myself.../
And I didn't know
I was lost."
♥
#goingtoblackpool
Had another lovely Sunday spent in Blackpool again, took my Godson all the way out to sea today - me up to my chest with him on my shoulders, and he was giggling his little head off as the waves soaked us both! :') - just got back home, and my little man was flat out from the drive... when he woke up, he had a nervous breakdown cause I wasn't there, and he hadn't give me a hug and kiss goodbye, so he just had to drive 6 miles back to my house just purely so I could give him a cuddle and a love! Awww, me little soldier! :') ♥
[feeling loved with Dawn Wheels Owen and Sheila Scott]
This weekend has been brilliant from start to finish, full of smiles and sunshine, and friends and family. Spent Friday with a good close friend, got to see my beautiful little Princess Ilysha once more, had an awesome night seeing my mate perform a brilliant live set and spent time with some old friends who I don't see enough. Had a brilliant day in Blackpool with my Mum & Dawn and my handsome little Soldier Charlie, and now I'm going to bed shortly feeling the best I've felt in a long time. Never give up, you never know what is around the corner.
[feeling untouchable]
The future seems bright, sunshine is in sight.
[http://www.reverbnation.com/anothab/song/17654222-mellow]
"They can hear that thunder of the hooves.../
When we come with the hunger of the wolves."
This feeling is incredible.../
Worth every second spent to get upon this pedestal.../
I found the pieces I was missing.../
Now the jigsaw's complete, and the picture is pristine.
If you want an easy life, live on your own in the middle of nowhere. Otherwise get used to drama & suck it up princess. Shit happens, get used to building bridges & getting the fuck over it. #riseabove
To be honest... I made myself a promise.../
I'd never fail my child - I'd die before I go back on it.../
Now I'm moving supersonic, out of reach like I'm a comet.../
And I'm never coming down unless my bodies catatonic.
But only one or two inside my head."
#frankturner
Late at night I sit and think a lot. Tonight I've been thinking about love, and about relationships. I think I may truly end up staying single forever. I used to stay single because I didn't want to be faithful and because I had severe trust issues from being hurt too many times in the past. These days I stay single simply because all I have to offer, every piece of me worth giving, my love, my strength, my time, my patience, and my emotional energy is all reserved for my daughter. No woman deserves to be in second place, but with me, it would be inevitable. My daughter is my world, my life and my everything, and no woman will ever compare to her in my eyes. I think I may stay single forever, because if I love you, you would deserve better than what I am willing to offer.
[feeling honest]
Bit of Avicii to wake me up? Don't mind if I do...
[feeling fresh]
[drinking water]
"If you remembered me,
you could save me from the way I tend to be."
#frankturner
Worked a right sweat up tonight... How? By sitting still obviously.
The soundtrack for today appears to be the same as yesterday, a middle aged woman constantly clearing her throat 1 metre away from me. #fml
I'm in a right irritable mood today, I can tell because everything is annoying me. Next on the list, people who attention seek by narrating aspects of their life that nobody cares about, trying to prompt a question from other people. Nobody cares, shut up and just do whatever it is you're doing.
[feeling agitated]
I'm waving red flags, never raising a white one.../
Ignite like a pipebomb, hold tight like a python.../
My vicegrip is quite strong, I fight till my life's gone.../
Revising my rhymes until it's time to turn the mic on.
Turned on all the lights so there was nothing left to see.../
So when I drift outside and I stare into the night.../
There's no diamonds in the sky that are staring back at me.../
And it don't take a genius to realise
that freedom is not another thing we want,
it's something that we need.../
If you can't tell the difference in being sold a system,
and seeing solar systems, then you cannot be free.../
And that's my biggest fear, that we'll just stay right here
and never end what we started.../
If it would see us clear,
I'd walk out in my garden, stretch up both my arms
and shed a final frontier.../
When we left."
[with Christopher Downs]
I wish it would snow just long enough to do some naked snow angels, then return to nice weather. #overlyhot
"And with my fam right behind me.../
I can hang glide through lightning.../
Motherfucker I told you I tango.../
With a bang, off the chain like Django."
< 3
I'd never fail my child - I'd die before I go back on it.
I wouldn't say #ManofSteel is good, but it's the first film I've watched in perhaps 4 months where I haven't been able take my eyes off the screen. #holyfuckingkryptonite
"I put a tupperware container in the fridge that had a sandwich and a Kitkat in it and when I opened it at lunchtime there was a pickle in it instead. This is stealing. I know it was David Thorne because he said I should go to lunch early because I deserve a break today which is what they say in the Kitkat advert."
[with Christopher Downs]
Positivity is power, smiles make me stronger, hope makes me faster, and love... love makes me invincible.
"While I was at lunch a package came for me because I ordered a t-shirt online last week. It was on my desk and when I opened it there was a pair of socks in it and I could tell the package had been opened and taped back up. When I went into David Thornes office he was wearing the t-shirt."
[with Christopher Downs]
Today's #pethate complaint; people who won't accept responsibility for their own mistakes. We are all human, and human's make mistakes - it's inevitable. When you make a mistake, accept it, learn from it, and don't try to blame other people.
Chess? Or Ches? By the way my name is Steve, and it's awfully nice to meet my new best friend in Hanley bus station. Add me on Snapchat...
[feeling amused with Christopher Downs]
I ain't saying that I love you -
I'm just saying that I'd fuck you.
[feeling ruthless]
It's almost smiles & sunshine o'clock, where Daddy gets to spend some more time with his little perfectly perfect Princess!!
[feeling untouchable]
Every moment spent with my Princess is magical... her little toothy smile, her big pretty blue eyes, her soft golden hair, her adorably cute giggle, her chunky little arms and legs, her curious nature, her explorative little fingers, her active little feet... she is perfection... ♥
[feeling invincible]
Every day that you don't spend living, is just a day you spend dying.
If you are on Android and your phone doesn't have a built in phone number block function, then get your ass on Google PlayStore and download "aFirewall call and sms blocker" - it's free until midday tomorrow to download the pro version, and will allow you to block peoples numbers ;) - you're welcome.
The most innocent comments can be the sincerest sounding compliments.
[feeling content]
This world's imperfect, but with you it's worth it.../
Will never let my fuse short circuit,
never let you fall and bruise your surface.
♥
[http://www.reverbnation.com/anothab/song/15526578-lullaby]
Well I'd be lying to say I haven't appreciated the drop in temperature & humidity. Still, a bit of sunshine wouldn't go amiss!
[http://www.reverbnation.com/anothab/song/18014417-incredible]
"She says we've still got forever.../
We're young and dumb, and we don't know better."
[feeling carefree]
"I take it in but don't look down...
cuz I'm on top of the world 'ay!!"
♥ :D
And it's a long way up when you hit the ground.../
But get up now, get up, get up now.../
Cause I'm on top of the world 'ay!"
♥
[feeling ontopoftheworlday!]
Did you know that if you put your headphones in your nostrils and open your mouth, it works like a speaker? The sound travels around and echoes out of your mouth which amplifies the volume! #tt1543557
[http://visual.ly/]
Well, the latest episode of #Dexter is a clusterfuck of watdafuq.
Haven't heard this in a while, such a deep and really powerful message ♥
I just got woken up by thunder, fml.
So yeah, I thought I'd assess my digital footprint and consolidate my presence. Easier said than done... I have profiles on at least 167 websites, potentially a lot more. FMAL.
[feeling overwhelmed]
Just been on the phone for over 2hrs just chatting away. I think I've grown a vagina.
I'm here till the end girl and nothing will change it.
From your pretty head down to your tiny toes.../
You complete my life and I'm sure it shows.../
Got a smile on my face and it rarely goes.
♥ [feeling content]
Knowing I need to get up for the gym at half 6 is inspiring me to get my arse off to bed.
[feeling emotional]
"And I know it's hard when you're falling down,
and it's a long way up when you hit the ground,
but get up now, get up, get up now..."
Brothers in more then name.../
you would kill for me,
and knew that I'd do the same."
♥
"I could've gave up then - but, then again I couldn't have...
'cause I've travelled all this way for something!/
I take it in but don't look down!/
'Cause I'm on top of the world 'ay!!"
♥ [feeling unbreakable!]
Cutting deep into my flesh like a shattered shield.../
Standing my ground really lacked appeal.../
Carried my baggage on my back until I had to kneel.
The greatest love of all was the love that we wasted.
[https://soundcloud.com/anothab/love-we-wasted]
That awkward moment when your elderly neighbour knocks on to complain about the music being too loud and you answer the door literally dripping of sweat in just a pair of shorts because you're in the middle of a weights session but it looks more like you've just been shagging... Awkward for her I mean, personally I couldn't care less.
Bed beckons ready for one last work shift before the weekend, and one last day before I see my little Princess again :') ♥
"This tune's got me so in the mood.../
It's like my feet just seem to know what to do."
[feeling fresh]
The fact it's Friday is the only excuse necessary for a liquid lunch. We can just overlook the fact that I had liquid lunches yesterday and Tuesday... ;)
Had to fold before I broke and I couldn't be fixed.../
If it wasn't for my Princess, I wouldn't exist.
[feeling thirsty]
Eventful night haha
"Just noise, white noise..." ♥
Shower, cereal, coffee, cig... ready to go see my Princess!! #bestday
[feeling blessed]
27/07/2013 @12:16
And just like that, the skies are crystal
clear, the sun is shining and nothing can touch me... :')
27/07/2013 @20:34
"Cause I don't love her like I used to,
so to get back at me she
know she got to use you.../
And I don't know what else to do,
she
don't understand that this shit will bruise you too."
27/07/2013 @22:00
"Just noise, white noise..." ♥
27/07/2013 @23:28
[with Terry Scott and Lea Hope]
28/07/2013 @02:35
Everywhere that I look, it's you in my sight.../
First thing in the
morning, and last thing at night.
♥
28/07/2013 @12:02
Two more weeks, fingers crossed, and I'll be
emerging out the end of the tunnel with rainbow wings. #homestraight
[feeling
optimistic]
28/07/2013 @13:10
I used to love the quick buzz
but I quit it because,
there is no
competition between my daughter and drugs.../
And I don't need to
hope
that I stay off the Coke,
cause to keep her in my life, I
stay cleaner than soap.
28/07/2013 @14:03
With my Charlie :')
[with Dawn Wheels Owen
and Sheila Scott]
28/07/2013 @18:19
Been a tiring day chasing my Char-char all
around Amerton Farm! Been brilliant though - the little tyke loved every
minute of it! It took bribing him with MacDonalds to even get him to come out
haha! Another lovely day with lovely company, finishing off another lovely
weekend...
[feeling content with Dawn Wheels Owen and Sheila Scott]
28/07/2013 @20:21
Quality and quantity are not mutually exclusive;
my 5000+ word Position Statement for Court is a testament to that.
[feeling
ruthless]
28/07/2013 @21:46
"I'm not the only one who regrets the way they act.../
But I seem to
be the only one who's honest with the fact."
#frankturner
28/07/2013 @22:49
Just realised, today is the 2yr anniversary of
having my own house, and more surprisingly Thursday was the 3yr anniversary of
doing my Take Daily photography project! Commitment or what? That means I've
taken a photo every day for the last 1098 consecutive days!!
[feeling
impressed]
29/07/2013 @00:05
I hate how much some people have changed,
because I still remember how much they once meant to me. I see old photos,
read old messages, reminisce of old memories... and then remember that they
aren't the same person anymore. And I hate it... because I love the person
they used to be, and yet now... well, now they mean nothing to me I guess.
It's sad really.
29/07/2013 @12:32
It's slowly sinking in, overwhelmingly, that
exactly two weeks from today on August 12th, the heartache of the last 18
months could all be over. It was nine months of impatient waiting, followed by
nine months of painful chasing. Can I please just have my happy ending now?
#daydreams
29/07/2013 @18:08
I definitely wouldn't recommend my Solicitors to
anyone! Swear when I win this Court case I'm going to be annoyed to tell
people I had a Solicitor, because in all honesty I've pretty much represented
myself, and done all the fucking work myself! #unbelievable
[feeling
annoyed]
29/07/2013 @23:32
Well would you look at that, it's Dexter
o'clock...
[watching Dexter]
30/07/2013 @08:48
Immense.
30/07/2013 @09:14
Don't tell people what you're capable of, show
them. Less talk, more action.
[feeling motivated]
30/07/2013 @19:53
I paid my ex £162.75 for Child Support earlier,
and she's text me already saying I've underpaid her by £1.92... I've just sent
it, £1.92 a month is a cheap price to pay for an easy life....
#firstworldproblems
[feeling amused]
30/07/2013 @21:20
Literally crying at this! hahaha!
30/07/2013 @22:02
It's a bit sad really that my local shopkeeper
asks how my little girl is doing more often than some of my own family. Makes
me smile though, it's the simple things that mean the most. The best things in
life really are free.
30/07/2013 @23:14
Just watched Grown Ups 2, and after seeing a
negative'ish review I was pleasantly surprised as I've just laughed constantly
for the last hour and half, including multiple rewinds haha!
[feeling
entertained]
30/07/2013 @23:40
What in the holy deep fried bacon fuck with Jack
Daniels and cheese sauwce has Jon Bamford introduced me to?!! #EpicMealTime
31/07/2013 @07:50
Pre work workout, lapping bitches in bed...
[with
Terry Scott at Pure Gym]
31/07/2013 @09:25
"In a black and white world, true colors show."
31/07/2013 @12:31
"For years, men have been raising daughters into young women. It used to
scare me... it still scares me... - but I'll give my life away in pursuit of
it any day." - #Schaefer [feeling protective]
31/07/2013 @22:41
I'm trying to collect Snapchat contacts like
they're Pokemon... I've only got 37 so far but I still have my Master Ball.
Feel free to add me: @anothab
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