01/09/2013 @00:08
"Let us fight to fulfil that promise. Let us fight to free the world, to do away with national barriers, to do away with greed, with hate and intolerance. Let us fight for a world of reason, a world where science and progress will lead to all men's happiness!"
Rorschach stains ingrained in what I'm saying; interpret it however you want -
I won't complain.
Another day out with Captain America... :')
How many other people see a picture on someone's profile and go to "like" it, only to realise they already have done previously? I must do that shit at least once a day.
An example of the simple things in life. You walk into Greggs, query an empty product tray and then smile to yourself as they pass you freshly baked ones out of the oven.
[feeling Easily Pleased]
Requiescat en pace. /ACR
Money is a necessary evil, and it's a good job I'm content with a minimalist lifestyle.
[feeling broke]
5hrs more in, then 5 days off... roll on half 5!
[playing Assassins Creed 3]
Thinking of going bed soon, so I've just done the logical thing and made myself a coffee... #goingfullretard
Don't console Mii, I refuse to lose.
1000 point gamerscore, or a platinum trophy.
Respawn once more, no n00b can own me.
[with Alan Caster Tonk]
[http://www.reverbnation.com/anothab/song/16274983-all-a-game]
Off work with no kids tomorrow, so there'll be no alarms either... wonder if my sleep pattern will allow a lie in??
Stone preservation. #2birds
[feeling amused]
The Animus is shutting down.
[feeling wonderful]
"I've been surfing through this life on the waves of time, and put it all on the line to define what's mine. Architecture of the future is now my design. The blueprints I refine with shoe prints in my mind. Look for hints and you will find breadcrumbs and signs, Cartography, I'm mapping out construction lines..." #anothab
[playing Wreck-It Ralph]
Fuck about! :/
I can't wait to see my lil' beautiful Princess in the morning!!
[feeling impatient]
Just had my Princess all to myself for 4hrs and had a lovely time with her... my favourite part was possibly when she decided to spontaneously wee all over us both whilst I was changing her nappy, about 5 minutes before I needed to leave the house to take her back home!
[feeling amused]
Can't wait see my lil soldier tomorrow :)
Here we go again! :')
[with Dawn Wheels Owen and Sheila Scott]
Charchar just asked me: "How can horses scratch their bums when they don't have any hands?" - fair play 'Son, I can't answer that!!
[with Dawn Wheels Owen and Sheila Scott]
I'm floating, it kinda feels like I'm dreaming.../
Walking on clouds high above the glass ceiling.../
At last found freedom far from past feelings.../
High off life... at last I know the meaning.
Awesome weekend to celebrate my birthday - pub Friday night, lil' Princess yesterday, up town last night, and then my lil' Prince today!! Love my life! ♥
[feeling wonderful]
Is it home time yet?
[feeling ceebs]
£39.99 well spent... PS+ subscription renewed until 02/01/15. #birthdayfunds
[feeling impatient]
Like a boss.
Wow... so Dexter ended fucked up too, but at least it wasn't a massive cliffhanger!
I feel like an extra on The Walking Dead... I need coffee more than oxygen this morning.
"You're just some blind fool, who's always chasing butterflies. Whereas I'm the type of guy, who likes to have a beer in one hand, and a titty in the other."
Well, my bed isn't going to starfish in itself.
Just heard about my mukka @Liam Dann, it seems 4 lads assaulted him up Hanley outside Subway on Saturday night and broke his jaw in two places, and there is no witnesses or evidence?? C'mon people, someone must have seen something?
[http://www.thisisstaffordshire.co.uk/Man-remains-hospital-late-night-Hanley-assault/story-19781255-detail/story.html]
Well, the opening episode of the new series of Sons of Anarchy pulled no punches! Jesus! Go hard or go home much? Almost 17 minutes before the opening credits even ran, and then a further 45 minutes of absolute ruthlessness!!
Now we're nothing more than the fractures and cracks,
That spread far and fast like scars across our past.
We smashed the hourglass, now at last you grasp the facts.
And accept my contribution to the future we'll enact.
For those who haven't realised yet, I write and record my own music. Please listen, like and share!! [http://www.reverbnation.com/anothab/song/18423256-incomplete]
Very few people these days can hold mature and deep conversations. Say what you like, I'm thankful to have people in my life who I can connect with on a higher level.
[feeling grateful]
"You are the last of the ladies.../
You are the one who can save me.../
You are, you are, you are."
#Courteeners
Off to bed smiling, because I know it's almost the weekend... Ily&Char♥
Unfortunately I won't be coming to work today... my bed has taken me hostage.
13/09/2013 @19:19
"Shining like a diamond in the darkness of the sky... I stellify."
13/09/2013 @19:52
Decided to make a new playlist... it's taken over an hour and ended up with 1,370 songs.
13/09/2013 @23:49
I delay eating for so long that I end up not bothering.
14/09/2013 @00:46
Going to bed with a smile on my face that seems too big for my head... because when I wake up, it'll be Daddy & Daughter time once more! :') ♥
14/09/2013 @08:54
Waking up fresh on Saturday mornings is the best!
[feeling fresh]
14/09/2013 @14:26
Just dropped my lil' Princess back off at her Mum's, and I miss her already!! Had an amazing time with her again... she was worth every tear and all the stress over the last couple of years! :') ♥
14/09/2013 @17:40
Beer & football... :)
[with Terry Scott at White Horse]
15/09/2013 @00:11
Am I the only one who sees the beautiful natural brunette beside the fake blonde with a face constructed of cheap makeup?
15/09/2013 @01:24
I'm probably the only guy who goes out drinking and spends most of the night looking at photos of his children x
15/09/2013 @18:46
Under scrutiny, denied the opportunity,
but still remained in the shadows patiently and dutifully.../
Beautifully I bit my tongue and I waited,
until the day came that I had anticipated.
[http://www.reverbnation.com/anothab/song/18605911-met-her-for-metaphor]
15/09/2013 @19:42
Madness hearing this now after everything that's happened, I can hardly believe my little Princess is going to be 1 next month! Where does the time go?
Is it appropriate for my ex's new fella who she has been with for 9 weeks having a photo of my daughter as his Whatsapp picture, and introducing her as his stepdaughter? Discuss.
15/09/2013 @21:36
Proud to know this lad, and be able to call him a mate!
16/09/2013 @13:32
Aerial has fallen off my roof, the smoke alarm is beeping, the lightbulb in my living room has blown, my lighter won't work... but you ain't gonna break me, woosah! Just submitted the application to re-register my daughter's birth to have my details on the Birth Certificate, and I'm smiling. #firstworldproblems
[feeling defiant]
16/09/2013 @18:32
Got home from a day of work, done the dishes, changed the battery in the smoke alarm, changed the lightbulb, and now I can sit down with a brew & some fruit without a care in the world :)
16/09/2013 @20:19
The darkness suffocates inside of my head,
my nightmares escalate and demonstrate why fears are fed.../
I hyperventilate, and speculate I belong with the dead,
but I'm a Hydra, a survivor, I get stronger instead.../
OFF WITH MY HEAD!
17/09/2013 @1:21:30am
I have a job, and common sense, so GTA5 will wait until tomorrow in my world. #reluctant
17/09/2013 @08:12
So... anybody completed GTA 5 yet?
17/09/2013 @10:40
Good Jesus, what is Playstation trying to do to me?! I'm currently smashing Assassins Creed 3 up and intend on finishing it, I should be getting GTA5 later today, and now I find out the PS+ free game next month is Far Cry 3!! I foresee a lot of time spent with just me and my PS3 over the coming months... recluse mode enabled.
17/09/2013 @18:21
And in another brilliant example of why my brother is the best, I have come home from a long day at work, and GTAV is already here waiting for me. Love you bro!
[feeling lucky with Terry Scott]
17/09/2013 @22:39
Note to self, pedalling off the top of Mount Chiliad on a BMX doesn't end well. Neither does driving into Fort Zancudo and attempting to fly off in a P-996 Lazer fighter jet... #gta5
18/09/2013 @00:00
I'm not stoned. Completely. Completely not stoned. I'm straight. Completely straight. I can do anything. I could be a brain surgeon. Brain surgery, yeah I could do that. I should have been a brain surgeon.
18/09/2013 @09:01
"I refuse to be concerned with condescending advice.../
Cause I'm the only motherfucker who can change my life."
18/09/2013 @17:39
Exactly a month today is my lil' Princesses first birthday... madness!
18/09/2013 @20:56
"Hold the person that you love closely if they're next to you.../
The one you love; not the person that'll simply have sex with you."
18/09/2013 @21:43
I guess I'm kinda broke beneath the surface.../
Shattered parts, that mattered before the worst hit.
18/09/2013 @22:46
"Are we just one more stop for the hands of time?
Or here with a reason and man divine?"
18/09/2013 @23:02
Been so preoccupied taking strife within my stride,
that it dominates my mind and intoxicates my sight./
It complicates my life, but I compensate inside;
it confiscates my rights, but I concentrate and fight./
I postulate it might, provide the oxygen to write.
[with Tu Ben Ngo]
18/09/2013 @23:33
I'll keep twisting the blade.../
Life gave me lemons but I made a grenade.../
Laid them lemons to rest in a mess of a grave.../
Along with the best of mistakes that I made.
19/09/2013 @00:01
I've had my fair share of the worst pain.../
Yet it hurt worse witnessing you're world change.../
You've always been gold through the cursed rain.../
So I can't forgive the soul who deserves blame.
19/09/2013 @01:14
I really enjoy deep philosophical chats with people who are emotionally mature and conscious. It is natural progression that such people transcend the ignorance and connect on a higher level every time they converse.
[with Christopher Downs and Sylvester Sylvester]
19/09/2013 @01:33
It is unnatural for people to hate, and to want anything less than the best for the people in their life. When our focuses and goals are aligned, we can combine to build a better future for the next generation. Ignorance is our greatest burden, and empathy is our greatest gift. Weak people seek affirmation by bringing down the people around them; strong people seek to make other people strong, and to unite the world in harmonious equilibrium. If we can focus on a common goal, progression is inevitable. United we will stand, divided we shall fall.
19/09/2013 @08:59
Life is unfair, and karma is a fallacy. The sooner we accept these unfortunate facts, the sooner we can proactively better our living conditions. You get out of life what you put in; we reap what we sow.
19/09/2013 @13:41
"No man has ever risen to the real stature of spiritual manhood until he has found that it is finer to serve somebody else than it is to serve himself." – Woodrow Wilson
19/09/2013 @18:06
Rest in peace to Hiroshi Yamauchi, one of the most influential people ever to honour the computer games industry. I sincerely have genuine respect for this legend.
19/09/2013 @18:45
Ironic how the people who are so quick to put you through Hell with no remorse, are the very same people who then expect you to still do favours for them. Not this time.
19/09/2013 @21:54
"Pessimism is an emotion, not a philosophy."
19/09/2013 @22:21
"I am content to die for my beliefs, so cut off my head and make me a martyr. The people will always remember it."
19/09/2013 @23:33
I tried but I could not stem the blood loss,
so I stayed by your side until the flood stopped.../
The thoughts that you hide slowly unlocked,
and your words cut me deep just like gunshots.
[http://www.reverbnation.com/anothab/song/18648178-pray-for-you]
20/09/2013 @00:18
The best remedy for a cold house is a hot bath... #relaxed
20/09/2013 @09:13
You can tell colleges etc are back, public transport & traffic have been horrendous this week.
20/09/2013 @13:32
Some peoples attitudes are ridiculous... just been verbally savaged in KFC by some random bint who went nuclear because I made a passive comment agreeing with her! #putyourtamponbackup
20/09/2013 @18:41
Life creates problems and challenges to test our strength and perseverance, and in the face of adversity we must rise to the occasion and achieve victory by whatever means necessary. The ends will always justify the means if the cause is righteous.
20/09/2013 @19:34
One of a gamers biggest dilemmas is having a new game to play when you haven't finished the last game yet. GTA V is staring at me, but I'm 80% through AC3.
20/09/2013 @09:40
"I would rather have had one breath of her hair... one kiss of her mouth... one touch of her hand... than an eternity without it. One..." [watching City of Angels]
20/09/2013 @23:19
I don't play computer games. I destroy them.
21/09/2013 @01:29
Casual 14 trophies earned whilst tying up AC3... now bed ready for seeing my lil' Princess in the morning!
[feeling amazing]
21/09/2013 @09:24
Outside the weather is miserable, but inside me the sun in shining defiantly... Daddy is on the way to fetch his lil' beautiful bundle of perfection... :') ♥
21/09/2013 @16:33
Parting is such sweet sorrow... hope my lil Princess has a nice time next weekend wherever her Mummy is taking her... roll on a fortnight so I can see her again - for both Sat & Sun!! :') ♥
21/09/2013 @20:57
"Ignoring the insults, and evil eyes.../
I feed off of 'em; I wonder when she'll realise?"
21/09/2013 @22:31
"I have to believe that when things are bad, I can change them."
21/09/2013 @23:30
In life there are no second chances, there are no recounts, there are no replays... so give it everything you've got, and when you've got nothing left to give, when you've used up everything you have, every last piece of you... focus on whatever you hold dear, and give it even more. Be the best that you can be, nobody could ask for anything more. YOLO doesn't mean live like nothing matters, it means live like everything matters.
22/09/2013 @02:40
"Isn't that when you slept on the pool table Andy? Yeah for six hours? Thank you flaming sambuca. Remember when you woke up, we said you'd been asleep for a year and that it was 1991, and you freaked out and punched a clock?!"
[watching The World's End]
22/09/2013 @12:11
Nothing like waking up to 11 missed calls, 4 text messages, 2 Whatsapp messages, 8 Facebook notifications, 9 Instagram notifications & 6 Snapchats make you feel popular!!
22/09/2013 @23:27
"Fear is not real. The only place that fear can exist is in our thoughts of the future. It is a product of our imagination, causing us to fear things that do not at present, and may not ever exist. That is near insanity. Do not misunderstand me danger is very real, but fear is a choice."
[watching After Earth]
23/09/2013 @01:19
If something is truly important to me, the only thing that could ever stop me fighting for it is death. And even then it's not a guarantee.
23/09/2013 @08:44
If you don't need a coffee when you wake up, you aren't human.
23/09/2013 @09:27
"It's a rhythmic reality; a remedy through riddles.
Where love's a hurricane, and you meet me in the middle."
23/09/2013 @12:43
"It's the past love still cooking inside,
it's the warm fuzzy feeling when I look in her eyes."
23/09/2013 @17:59
I've never been a fan of working Monday mornings, or Friday afternoons... so this afternoon I've submitted 18 holiday requests so that I don't have to work any of them for the next nine weeks. Yes, you read that right the first time.
23/09/2013 @18:31
SPOILER ALERT Why are you even still reading this?!
23/09/2013 @20:52
"Failure is the most readily available option at all times, but it's a choice. You can choose to fail or you can choose to succeed." - Chael Sonnen
24/09/2013 @09:02
"Real magic isn't cards tricks, big cribs and cars, bitch.../
It's making something outta nothing through this hardship!"
24/09/2013 @21:13
"Life isn't worth living, unless it is lived for someone else." - Albert Einstein
25/09/2013 @09:06
"I caught the fresh force; I hopped and leapt forth.../
So check it mate, I'm the pawn that crossed the chessboard."
25/09/2013 @13:47
Happily a single pringle!
25/09/2013 @22:11
"From the Heaven I have, to the Hell I been through.../
I'm always coming back home to you."
26/09/2013 @00:19
Sometimes, I fucking hate being OP.
[with Christopher Downs]
26/09/2013 @08:46
Well... this is a welcome surprise.
[feeling fresh]
26/09/2013 @13:31
I don't know how I used to cope without hour long lunch breaks.
26/09/2013 @19:15
"Like nothing really matters... like pain doesn't hurt.../
You should mean more to me by now than just heartbreak in a short skirt."
26/09/2013 @19:22
"I want to dance... I want to dance.../
I want lust, and love, and a smattering of romance..."
It's slowly sinking in that I'm not seeing my lil' Princess this weekend... and now I'm really missing her.
[feeling alone]
[https://soundcloud.com/anothab/supreme]
It hurts, but you've never heard truer words spoken.
Is it home time yet? I'm sure there's a pint with my name on it at the Moorland!
[with Christopher Downs]
If anybody else uses LinkedIn for their business profiles, feel free to request me on there.
[http://uk.linkedin.com/pub/ben-scott/16/a83/a08]
Quality vs. quantity... sometimes it isn't an easy choice.
If you're on Android, be aware of this nifty tool... if you lose your phone, you can make it ring full volume for 5 minutes until you locate it... if someone nicks it or you leave it lying about, you can remotely change your password, lock screen or even wipe all your data from it. Definitely worth bookmarking! ;)
[https://www.google.com/android/devicemanager]
I didn't realise until tonight that Friday night at the Moorland was nappy night haha!
[with Christopher Downs at Moorland Inn]
"When can I see you again?" ♥
"Imagination is more important than knowledge.
Knowledge is limited. Imagination encircles the world."
- Albert Einstein
"I've been looking for my Mrs. Right, but she don't exist.../
Chemistry is everything, and we're anything but this."
Looking through old pictures feeling nostalgic, remembering all the people I've met, places I've been and experiences I've had. Life changes so much, and we're so busy being caught up in the moment, we don't even realise it.
Just found an old recording of me & Switch (aka Micky Rawlinson) drunk freestyling a few years ago haha.
[http://www.reverbnation.com/anothab/song/18728299-freestyle-ft-switch]
[feeling mischievous]
Cheeky beverage, considering Hanley duck! Hopefully wake up in a hedge tomorrow morning! #jk
[with Lorna Ector and Rob Cooper at Moorland Inn]
[with Lorna Ector and Rob Cooper at The Reginald Mitchell - Wetherspoons]
Amongst it...
[with Sophie Hand and Steph Hand at Revolutions Vodka Bar]
Just woke up feeling rough and confused!
[at In a Hedge]
I missed my daughter yesterday, but I'm still smiling... cause I get to see my son soon!
[feeling lucky]
"The first time you fall in love, it changes you forever and no matter how hard you try... that feeling just never goes away."
I am so blessed to have such beautiful amazing children in my life, they keep me eternally focused on what's really important, remind me what it means to love unconditionally, and give me a sense of pride that I've never known before. They make me a better man, and just genuinely complete me. Daddy loves you Ilysha & Charlie, you pair are my everything and more... ♥
[feeling blessed]
"I don't need too much, I just want to make my kids proud.../
Wishing that their life could stay as simple as it is now."
#BrBa
And every time I see you again, I remember it all like it was just yesterday.
I've always looked for love in all the wrong places, seeking broken spirits that I hoped I could save. I felt that was all I needed, because if I could fix a broken heart then my life would have served a purpose. If I could be the reason one girl smiled in the morning, then I couldn't be that bad of a person. I guess I used love as affirmation of who I was - I wielded it as a sword to protect me from my own darkest emotions, and as a shield to comfort me when I disliked my own reflection. I believe that only a girl as broken as me could ever understand me, or appreciate me - that only someone as damaged as I am could relate, accept or empathise. I have surrendered trying to be the hero, I have discarded my sword and shield - I know now that I am far too damaged to save anybody else since it took every ounce of strength I had just to save myself. Boredom and loneliness are the worst reasons for a relationship and yet I realise now, these are the main reasons we naively seek love. We see the world around us, the illusion of every other happy couple, and moreover the fairytales that Hollywood spoonfeeds us - and we yearn to experience this magic, seeking it so relentlessly we mistake lust, or convince ourselves of it's presence. I miss the memory of love, but in a world where memories are rose tinted, reality is forever doomed to falter to expectations. Love is a dream, but sooner or later, we all wake up. I'll settle for my memories.
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