An overview of opinions and observations for the month.
Saturday, 31 March 2012
Wednesday, 21 March 2012
Tuesday, 20 March 2012
Simply Being FRANK
I was a late starter in the drugs scene, not having my first experience until I was 20 years old; I'd always been the clever, strong one who didn't succumb to peer pressure and stayed engrossed in education and studies, avoiding the developing trend between friends.
Following the break down of a 4yr relationship with my fiancee, I found a big space in my life that I couldn't fill and as a result ended up becoming a frequent cannabis user. I constantly reassured myself that I was in control, that I wouldn't ever let it escalate to further despite stories of weed being a gateway drug. After around a year I began to dabble in other illicit substances, from amphetamines and ketamine, to ecstasy and cocaine. It was the latter that proved the problem.
I began to use cocaine increasingly frequently as an escape. At first it was here and there, a cheeky line to get the night going when I went out with like minded friends, a beer and a gram soon became the established norm, but it quickly became the case that one gram wasn't enough and before I knew it I was having 3 or 4 grams most nights. Where I'd once spent nights out dancing and drinking, socialising and flirting, I now spent them phoning dealers all night and ordering taxis left, right and centre to score in the early hours.
At the time I closed my eyes to the extent of the addiction, but after realising I'd spent £8,000 in a month, I accepted the situation was way out of hand, and I was no longer in control. I swore to myself that was it, I wasn't being that person anymore. That being said, it wasn't that simple with drugs, especially when your circle of friends are reluctant to give up the fast life. I was living like a rock star when I was far from it. Debt was mounting, and I was regularly turning up to work on no sleep, wired and having to battle through the day on a comedown, sometimes even taking a small amount with me so I could get a fix midway through my shift.
I am still battling to knock it all on the head, despite the severity of the damage caused; I guess all drug abusers are self destructive to some extent. It is very rare these days that I allow myself to slip up, but even the isolated incidents serve to prove that drugs have more of a hold than you can ever realise until it's too late.
I know most won't heed my words, but if you don't want to find out for yourself just how difficult it is to stop an addiction, don't tempt it in the first place. Say no to taking drugs, before it gets to the point where you can't say no.
Following the break down of a 4yr relationship with my fiancee, I found a big space in my life that I couldn't fill and as a result ended up becoming a frequent cannabis user. I constantly reassured myself that I was in control, that I wouldn't ever let it escalate to further despite stories of weed being a gateway drug. After around a year I began to dabble in other illicit substances, from amphetamines and ketamine, to ecstasy and cocaine. It was the latter that proved the problem.
I began to use cocaine increasingly frequently as an escape. At first it was here and there, a cheeky line to get the night going when I went out with like minded friends, a beer and a gram soon became the established norm, but it quickly became the case that one gram wasn't enough and before I knew it I was having 3 or 4 grams most nights. Where I'd once spent nights out dancing and drinking, socialising and flirting, I now spent them phoning dealers all night and ordering taxis left, right and centre to score in the early hours.
At the time I closed my eyes to the extent of the addiction, but after realising I'd spent £8,000 in a month, I accepted the situation was way out of hand, and I was no longer in control. I swore to myself that was it, I wasn't being that person anymore. That being said, it wasn't that simple with drugs, especially when your circle of friends are reluctant to give up the fast life. I was living like a rock star when I was far from it. Debt was mounting, and I was regularly turning up to work on no sleep, wired and having to battle through the day on a comedown, sometimes even taking a small amount with me so I could get a fix midway through my shift.
I am still battling to knock it all on the head, despite the severity of the damage caused; I guess all drug abusers are self destructive to some extent. It is very rare these days that I allow myself to slip up, but even the isolated incidents serve to prove that drugs have more of a hold than you can ever realise until it's too late.
I know most won't heed my words, but if you don't want to find out for yourself just how difficult it is to stop an addiction, don't tempt it in the first place. Say no to taking drugs, before it gets to the point where you can't say no.
Monday, 12 March 2012
Onesure Notice
Dear Chris,
It is with great regret I write to advise you that I am terminating my employment upon completion of my notice period of one month, as per the terms set out in my Employment Contract.
I have been dissatisfied and unhappy in my current role for a significant period of time now and this isn’t something I have neglected to bring to the attention of all relevant management over the past few months. I find that little or no consideration is given for myself and the department in which I work, despite my continued loyalty and dedication to the company. I have put myself out beyond the call of duty repeatedly and feel I am unappreciated and taken for granted, notably with regards to being required to work frequently outside of office hours almost as though this is acceptable and justifiable. When I have queried being paid overtime or otherwise reimbursed for this I have been almost belittled by certain management implying that my work rate and lack of organisation are at fault, and I am deserving of working until late for no financial profitability.
I also feel that given recent developments outside of employment within your company will not accommodate my current situation, and I am prioritising to pursue alternate career options more suited to my circumstances.
It saddens me to feel it has come to this, however despite measures being implemented to assist in combating the situation, I feel not enough has been done to restore my faith in the longevity of my employment.
I hereby give notice that I intend to terminate my employment a month from today.
Thank you sincerely for the opportunity and your investment in myself.
Kind Regards
AB
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