Friday, 31 January 2014

Monthly Musings: January 2014

An overview of opinions and observations for the month.

01/01/2014
Here's to a brand New Year; a blank canvas for your masterpiece, a fresh page for your epic novel. Don't simply talk about it - live it <3

01/01/2014 @01:38
As we mature and grow, we blossom and flourish.../ Our family unit branches out, only often malnourished.../ We fail to acknowledge how segregated we are.../ Until the distance between twigs is uncomfortably far.../ By the time we realise the extent of mistakes.../ We all try to relent - yet too little, too late.../ All the tree's branches have grown their own leaves.../ Except for your own; you're alone in the breeze.

01/01/2014 @13:15
If you only achieve one thing in 2014, I hope that it's finding true happiness x

01/01/2014 @13:52
Off to spend the rest of New Years Day with someone very special to me, my lil' ray of Sonshine :') - love you my Charchar ♥
[feeling blessed]

01/01/2014 @21:44
Trial by fire - Paint it Black, this Rolling Stone is back on track.../
His home is where he lays his hat, and that's wherever Ily's at...

02/01/2014 @09:46
Today is the day we must say goodbye
And send you off peacefully to God up high.
We'll never know why as we lay you to rest.
But I believe it's because God only takes the best.

[with Mark Hill]

02/01/2014 @21:41
Everything is transient, nothing is permanent. Appreciate life for what it is, and when the inevitable winds of change blow, surrender to them with grace.

02/01/2014 @22:25
It's madness that I've just started my Take Daily album for 2014... I've stuck to this project since 25th July 2010! That's 1258 days in a row, or in layman's terms just shy of 3 and a half years!
[feeling dedicated]

02/01/2014 @23:10
The main free game on PS+ for PS3 atm is Borderlands 2?! Fuck yeah!

03/01/2014 @09:39
First proper day back at work, and it's a Friday! BOOST!
[feeling accomplished]

03/01/2014 @17:10
TGIF, my motivation level peaked at about 38% around 11am, since then I've been treading water and clock watching! Roll on half 5!
[feeling blah]

04/01/2014 @00:08
Pessimism is an emotion, not a philosophy. Brush that shit off, and keep smiling. You are beautiful to me ♡

04/01/2014 @01:08
Had a casual night with my brother from another, think it's time I have my last smoke of the night, then get some shut eye before seeing my little munchkin tomorrow! ♡
[with Christopher Downs]

04/01/2014 @08:55
Well, I do believe it's almost time to go fetch my lil' Princess, so I guess smiles o'clock is fast approaching! Have a lovely day all you lovely people ♡
[feeling wonderful]

04/01/2014 @21:00
Amazing day with my little Princess Pumpkin Pants, now for a few beers & a Hobbit double bill...
[feeling wonderful with Christopher Downs]

05/01/2014 @13:25
Time for another afternoon with my lil' Prince Charming :') ♡

05/01/2014 @19:31
You know it's been a long busy weekend when you're considering going to bed at 19:30 on a Sunday night...
[feeling tired]

05/01/2014 @20:42
I've had my fair share of the worst pain.../
Yet it hurt worse witnessing your world change.

[http://www.reverbnation.com/anothab/song/18648178-pray-for-you]

05/01/2014 @20:48
You brought the fading fires back to the forefront, striked the match.../ Like lightning fast inciting that insightful silence that I'd lacked.../ Made the night skies fade from black, raised the light to break my mask.../ To take the hate inside I'd stacked and gave me back the life I'd trashed.

05/01/2014 @21:49
I'm intrigued to see how they will make a 2.5hr film out of just 5 chapters/61 pages of content. I anticipate a lot of embellishment. #Hobbit

06/01/2014 @06:54
This is a testament to how good my life must be at the moment: I woke up this morning, reached up to open my bedroom curtain whilst still lying in bed (as I sleep under the window) and proceeded to pull the entire curtain rail off by accident, which then fell and landed on my face... and I wasn't even annoyed, I was amused. Have a good morning all you lovely people, I'm off to the gym!
[feeling fresh]

06/01/2014 @13:19
Being positive is the conscious choice to smile in the face of adversity, so decide to be happy and refuse to let insignificant troubles ruin your day. Simply smile, and find comfort in the knowledge that the world is a beautiful place, life is a beautiful gift, and you are a beautiful soul ♡
[feeling positive]

06/01/2014 @19:32
The easiest way to identify what matters most in your life, is to take a moment to reflect on what you would miss the most if tomorrow never came. In all honesty, for 99% of us, it would be our family and those people that we care the most about. This fact alone proves that material possessions are superfluous in the greater scheme of things - and should remind us all to appreciate those we care about, and never miss the opportunity to tell people how much you love them, and how thankful you are to have them in your life.
[feeling appreciative]

06/01/2014 @20:48
"Because I am human.
Obsessed with improvement."

- @MaJiK MC
[http://sonnybcreative.bandcamp.com/track/i-am-not-a-rapper-spoken-word]

06/01/2014 @20:50
If you're ever feeling sad, watch this, and remember that life is so much happier when you have no worries or cares :') ♥

06/01/2014 @21:02
Just playing with my precious little girl, her smile is the best sight I've ever known :') ♥

06/01/2014 @21:07
A stack of cups in front of Ilysha is like a red flag to a bull... she just has to knock 'em down!! :') x

06/01/2014 @21:15
My little Princess gets more and more vocal every week hehe, it's amazing just hearing her chuntering away to herself, or even more so, when she's bantering with me :') ♥

06/01/2014 @21:21
If it's built or stacked, Ilypie will demolish it! No task too big! She even carries away the debris for disposal! haha :D ♥

06/01/2014 @21:34
My little girl has learned how to climb onto my sofa! As a result I had to play Changing Rooms in the middle of the day and move my sofa as a precaution so she didn't swan dive over the back of it haha :P ♥

06/01/2014 @22:07
Never underestimate how observant and perceptive children are... they pick up on, copy and mimic everything they see you do! Sometimes it's horrifying (as a smoker!) and other times... other times it's absolutely adorable and amazing! :') ♥

06/01/2014 @23:16
For anybody interested or involved in computer game design, I highly recommend watching this... talk about an emotional insight into the stresses, worries, pride and joy experienced by the people behind the pixels... inspiring and heartbreaking at the same time. Really makes me want to get back into games design, to instil a part of me into something permanent, a piece of myself immortalised... and scares me off at the same time.
[watching Indie Game: The Movie with Dan Heath]

07/01/2014 @00:05
The sooner you realise that life is imperfect, the sooner you can stop believing you need to be perfect to fit in it. We all have flaws, none of us are without fault; the fact that I already know this, means I have realistic expectations of people. We all fuck up from time to time, we all make mistakes, hurt feelings, break hearts, beckon tears... but the only thing that truly matters is whether you can honestly look in the mirror and be happy with who is looking back at you. Your opinion of yourself is more important than anybody else's, so stop trying to live up to their expectations and just be comfortable in your own skin. We are all our own biggest critics, so be critical about yourself, and when you find a part of you that you're uncomfortable with, change it instead of hiding it. Be a better person today than you were yesterday.

07/01/2014 @18:20
Fantasy: do something productive. Reality: do nothing productive.

07/01/2014 @21:43
Tonight has actually turned out fairly productive, sorted out a few bits and pieces I've been delaying.
[feeling productive]

07/01/2014 @22:39
I bash love cause I'm scared of the hurting,
expectations falter to worse things.../
Cursing all past girls
I invited to spy inside these black curtains.

#workinprogress
[http://www.reverbnation.com/anothab/song/19310153-sweet-nothing]

07/01/2014 @23:11
I knock love cause I'm done with the heartbreak,
Harsh taste of tears that appeared in this hard race.
I can't face all the fears that I can't change,
Plus trust is an issue that is here in my scarred frame.
Along with the baggage that I carry through the dark days -
Then how could I manage if we ever had to part ways?
So I've sealed up the bars to this large cage -
And here I'll remain 'til the shame in my heart fades.

07/01/2014 @23:21
I took up my sword in a purposeful grip.../
And fought each addiction that I'd ever let exist.

(Prod: @Dansonn Beats)
[http://www.reverbnation.com/anothab/song/17532080-chasing]

07/01/2014 @23:30
Walk a mile in my shoes and you'd get blistered feet.../ I run on hot coals yet I grew to resist the heat.../ They say I'm 'shallow', and yet I still spit this 'deep'.../ I only 'vomit tears'... cause I'm that 'sick' of 'grief'...

08/01/2014 @08:50
[Insert positive status here]
[feeling meh]

08/01/2014 @20:48
"No more running from the black clouds, I've got it all mapped out.../
I put it in a figure four until it tapped out."

[listening to Classified]

08/01/2014 @22:46
It's not very often I write and record songs where I sing... If you find the time to listen, I'd appreciate a cheeky comment with your thoughts please! Feedback is essential in order to develop! Prod: @Evelution Beats
[http://www.reverbnation.com/anothab/song/17529326-if-i]

08/01/2014 @23:09
As an aspiring music artist, somebody who has a real passion for what they do, it cuts deep when your audience fail to connect with you or embrace the fruits of your labours. You spend countless hundreds of hours of your life focusing on creating something immortal and beautiful, hoping for a little recognition or appreciation... instead you receive minimal support or involvement from the very people you try so desperately to reach out to. Perhaps it's time I got the hint, after recording around 230 tracks that nobody has the time, patience, or interest to warrant investing any more time into this seemingly pointless venture. I'm done with wasting my time, energy and effort. Peace.

08/01/2014
As an aspiring music artist, it cuts deep when you fail to get any real recognition or appreciation for the fruits of your labour. #honesty

09/01/2014 @00:08

09/01/2014 @08:55
"Now that's how my days go.../
From rain showers to rainbows!"

:') ♡
[travelling to Connect Insurance]

09/01/2014 @20:30
"A good artist should be isolated. If he isn't isolated, something is wrong."
- Orson Welles

10/01/2014 @07:08
Mandatory "going to the gym" status.
[travelling to PureGym Stoke-on-Trent]

10/01/2014 @20:01
Less talk, more action.

10/01/2014 @21:58
It's definitely not about game breaking glitches...
[feeling annoyed]

11/01/2014 @08:11
Definitely going give this a chance I reckon! I love how the US are already on episode 9... guess a marathon is on the cards ;)

12/01/2014 @02:20
Curling up in your own bed after an exhausting day is one of the simplest pleasures life has to offer. I've got 99 first world problems, but this ain't one.
[feeling relaxed]

12/01/2014 @21:45
What do watching videos on YouTube and having a beer have in common? One is never enough.

12/01/2014 @12:49
Well, that lie in was overdue... I woke up, posted my last status whilst still lying in bed playing on my phone, and fell back asleep for another 3 hours. *Yawn*

12/01/2014 @16:23
Unusual day with my lil Prince Charchar... he's spent most of it curled up with me on the armchair watching Mr Bean... not a very well little boy today :( x

12/01/2014 @19:21
"I find the notion of romantic love to be an unnecessary cultural construct that adds no value to human relationships."

12/01/2014 @20:24
Long anticipated and overdue second series.
[watching Banshee]

12/01/2014 @20:58
If you want to cut out the negativity in your life, start by unfollowing all the miserable cunts on here who constantly post drama and attention seeking statuses! I swear I unfollow at least one person a day lately because all they do is spam my newsfeed with neggy vibes!
[feeling positive]

12/01/2014 @21:09
So very proud of my little Princess's walking now! She has come on leaps and bounds! Look at her go here, proper just waddling around, dancing and swinging her arms around hehe... madness how fast she is learning and developing! Where did my little baby go!? Seems like just the other week when she couldn't even crawl properly and I was stressing about her development because other kids her age were already walking confidently... Daddy loves you so much Ilysha, and I am so proud of you! Seeing you grow up is the best thing I've ever known and experienced! :') ♥ xo

13/01/2014 @01:10
It would be a wise idea to turn off the PS3 and go to bed, Ben.
[playing Skyrim]

13/01/2014 @09:15
Sleep; it's just an inconvenience really innit. Think of how much more stuff you could get done in those 6+ hours a night. It's like wasting 25% or more of your life.

14/01/2014 @08:29
It's been said that happiness, laughter and smiles are contagious; so if you want to be a miserable bastard today, avoid me. I'm like a walking talking positivity virus, and some of you are about to get infected...

14/01/2014 @18:34
Really enjoying this, 5 episodes last night and I reckon another 4 tonight to bring me up to date :)
[watching The Tomorrow People]

15/01/2014 @00:33
Tamriel is the only place I've ever known where you actually get killed for simply shouting at someone... FUS-RO-DAH!
[feeling mischievous with Christopher Downs]

15/01/2014 @01:02
Hahahaha! Fucking boss!


15/01/2014 @01:05
Note to self, when going to the gym at 7am the following morning, don't stay up playing Skyrim all night...
[feeling like I should quite probably go to bed]

15/01/2014 @09:19
Today's to do list.
> 5.5hrs sleep ✔ 
> Gym ✔
> Work [in progress]
> Charchar
> Skyrim
> Bed 

15/01/2014 @21:07
Update 1.1.
> 5.5hrs sleep ✔
> Gym ✔
> Work ✔
> Charchar ✔
> Skyrim [in progress]
> Bed

16/01/2014 @20:49
I get paid to fix tech issues at work, yet it appears tonight has progressed to the equivalent of unpaid overtime. [feeling annoyed]

16/01/2014 @21:26
Well that's it, my 22" LCD monitor has finally gone faulty. Based on independent research, the diagnosis appears to be that the screen inverter has booked it, packed it and fucked off. To be fair, it's done me proud for the £200 I paid for it about 7 years ago... now it's just a case of either getting it fixed or replacing it, on a ridiculously tight budget. And by a ridiculously tight budget I mean I have no money... *cry cry*
[feeling heartbroken]

16/01/2014 @22:24
Beautiful video with a powerful and important message!


16/01/2014 @23:39
Forgiveness is not absolution.

17/01/2014 @17:40
Oversight, thou art a heartless bitch.
[feeling stupid]

18/01/2014 @09:18
Lovely weather this morning LOL, oh well, I'm sure my lil munchkin pants can brighten up my skies ♡
[feeling loved]

18/01/2014
Apples in barrels

18/01/2014 @13:44
I'm not even angry...
[feeling disappointed]

19/01/2014 @18:58
All is transient, nothing is forever. Time changes everything.

19/01/2014 @20:42
Never assume other peoples priorities and opinions match your own, unless you are comfortable with being proved wrong.

20/01/2014 @09:08
New week, let's hope this cunt has less drama than the last one! Pass me a fucking Kit Kat life, and give me a bastarding break yeh?!

20/01/2014 @18:26
[watching The Wolf of Wall Street]

20/01/2014 @19:12
Hehe, my lil' Princess's latest development - she did this to every single person who got off the bus when I was taking her home :D ♥ x

20/01/2014 @22:30
"Keep interested in your own career, however humble; it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time." - @Max Ehrmann
Making music was, is and always will be my coping mechanism.
[http://anothartist.tumblr.com/]

21/01/2014 @07:02
Well, I do believe it's time to go the gym!
[feeling healthy]

21/01/2014 @19:52
The subject matter of films and TV shows affects us differently as we grow and acquire a broader experience of how fucked up the world is. This is cutting very deep into a very real fear of mine...
[watching Prisoners]

22/01/2014 @21:01
Sometimes we get so used to the "bad", that we mistake the "okay" for being "good".

23/01/2014 @00:51
I was an adventurer like you once, then I took a Skyrim to my life.

23/01/2014 @09:16
"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us." - shine brightly all you beautiful people, and have a lovely day! ♡
[feeling wonderful]

23/01/2014 @12:48
Running errands on lunch...
[travelling to Reeds Rains]

23/01/2014 @19:04
Nice to see that both Banshee and The Following have kicked off their second series in style... gripping viewing!

23/01/2014 @22:17
The best part of being single is you can do whatever you want without needing "permission". Except for sex, you always need permission for that.

24/01/2014 @09:20
Tower calling battlestations, Friday is upon us! Weekend commencing in T-minus 8hrs!
[feeling awesome]

25/01/2014 @13:52
Such simple things like Ilysha fighting to stay awake whilst in her cot, but then falls asleep in my arms straight away :') ♥ - this hailstorm best not wake her up!

25/01/2014 @19:59
Skyrim is crying for my attention, meanwhile I've got 12 films waiting to be watched, and 3 TV shows to catch up on... #firstworldproblems
[feeling indecisive]

25/01/2014 @22:11
Right, enough messing around now... I'm offski.
[travelling to Tamriel]

26/01/2014 @01:23
Think bed is a good shout... looking forward to taking my lil Prince Charchar to Funsters for his friends birthday party tomorrow! ♡
[feeling excited]

26/01/2014 @11:50
"I'm the guy that you've been warned not to mess with.../
The farthest thing away from an emotional investment..."


26/01/2014 @19:01
"...a car had reportedly left the road, cleared a six foot wall, clipped the side of a house and landed on top of a parked car..."
Wait, what??
[http://www.signal1.co.uk/news/local/grandfather-and-grandsons-have-miracle-escape/]

26/01/2014 @23:47
A short adorable video of my adorable little Princess and her latest adorable development! Too cute!! Such a small seemingly minor thing, but it's amazing as a parent seeing every new thing your child learns! :') ♡

27/01/2014 @18:51
Roll on tomorrow morning, never been so excited about going the dentists... I'm in fucking agony!

27/01/2014 @21:35
If you know me properly, this next sentence will be a testament to my current situation. In the last 3 days I've only drank 3 cups of coffee (with no sugar in any of them) and about 30 litres of cold water.

27/01/2014 @22:01
♥ x

27/01/2014 @22:04
Rushes across the room to give me a kiss! :') - so sweet! ♥ x

27/01/2014 @22:09
Amazed by all her little developments, and fascinated just watching her grow! Nothing compares to being a parent... nothing even comes close! ♥ x

27/01/2014 @22:28
That awkward moment when you go to like someone's profile picture, and you've already liked it. If this happens, you know it wasn't just a "pity-like" the first time around.

28/01/2014 @10:40
Yes, I would like some drugs please... something strong ideally!
[at Ryecroft Surgery]

28/01/2014 @14:14
You underestimate the enjoyability of the simplest things in life until you can't have or do them!
[eating everything I can find]

28/01/2014 @15:04
Ahhh simple bliss!
[drinking coffee]

28/01/2014 @16:08
"I'm a product of the ghetto, my Father's boy.../
A Brother to my Sister, my Mother's pride and joy, I am..."



28/01/2014 @18:07
Let go of yesterday, the ink has already dried on that page of your story... the rest of your autobiography has so much potential to focus on instead - so create magic in those remaining chapters and include a fairytale ending to smile about when it's all over. You, yes YOU are amazing, so don't settle for anything less than the wonderful novel you deserve! I love you! xo

28/01/2014 @18:42
Fucking BOOM! Bioshock Infinite free on PS+ next month??! I'm all fucking over that!! @Christopher/@David

28/01/2014 @19:19
Behind the scenes videos like this really make me miss doing computer games design, especially environment art! Looks like the software has come on leaps and bounds since I studied it at University and it all looks so beautifully detailed and real! Cry cry! @Dan Heath

28/01/2014 @23:14
Change is inevitable, we can graciously accept it or vigorously fight it, but the end result will always be the same. That's right folks, change happens. Deal with it.
[watching The Butterfly Effect]

30/01/2014 @02:01
At least my plan of having an early night is going well...
[feeling awake]

30/01/2014 @08:47
Ahh, I love payday; for about 6hrs I don't feel completely skint.
[feeling not completely skint]

30/01/2014 @18:38
That awkward moment when you accidentally "like" a slew of munters on Tinder because you swipe the photos the wrong way...
[feeling awkward]

30/01/2014 @22:41
The older we get, the faster time seems to pass; there just doesn't seem to be enough hours in a day any more.

31/01/2014 @00:00
Being sensible... for a change!
[travelling to My Bed]

31/01/2014 @09:06
What's that coming over the hill, is it the weekend?! Is it the weekend?!

31/01/2014 @13:29
Aww, a wedding reception in Hanley Wetherspoons!? Too adorable! #stayclassy
[feeling sarcastic]

31/01/2014 @15:09
Anybody got any spare gopherwood lying around?
[reading How Noah Built The Ark]

31/01/2014 @18:17
You know you've been on Tinder too much when you're walking around looking at members of the opposite sex thinking swipe left, swipe left, swipe right...

31/01/2014 @20:06
No man should ever get as broody as I do when I see 'ickle adorable lil' babies!

31/01/2014 @22:53
Weekends just aren't what they used to be... ...they're better! Roll on tomorrow so I can see my lil' Princess Giggleface! ♡
[feeling totes amazeballs]

31/01/2014 @23:44
This is perhaps the only time when somebody blocking me has bothered me; I guess now she's in a relationship, our friendship is an inconvenience?
[listening to Folsom Prison Blues]

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