The Quit List

This is something SWIM has been doing subconsciously for the last year. SWIM’s been identifying problems systematically in their life and seeking to eradicate them.

So far, SWIM’s list is:

01. Amphetamines

SWIM used to use amphetamines (billy, speed, phet, whizz) in the past during their “off the rails” days. SWIM can happily say, they’ve not had it now since 30/07/11.

02. Ketamine

Ketamine? Just say neigh. Horse tranquilizer; SWIM has dabbled. K-holes are not fun in SWIM’s opinion. SWIM last had this alongside the aforementioned Amphetamines to take the edge off. Not had either since the same night, 30/07/11.

03. MDMA

Obviously, SWIM is aware MDMA is found in ecstasy; the MDMA this refers too is the powder type that SWIM either sniffs/gums. Last encounter was at Creamfields last year 27/08/11, and SWIM won’t be bothering again.

04. Cannabis

SWIM was once a very close friend of cannabis (weed, ganja, pott, green), but they substituted off it for harder stuff. SWIM doesn’t have any interest in it anymore, it really does fuck all for SWIM. Last had it 29/10/11 before SWIM’s works Halloween Party; doubt SWIM will ever have it again.

05. Ecstasy

Ecstasy was a more occasional drug of choice for SWIM, you’re talking raves, gigs and festivals. SWIM had it at DJ Caspa up Keele University back 06/11/10; steered clear until Creamfields 29/08/11, and had their last encounter at SWIM’s works Xmas Party 10/12/11. SWIM is not going back there again.

06. MXE

Methoxetamine was something SWIM only experimented once; and won’t be having again. A designer drug described as “rhino-ketamine”, ‘Mexxy’ was legal when SWIM sampled it. SWIM can’t lie, they describe the feeling as going to Heaven, the most free they’ve ever felt; nirvana. Disassociative and hallucinogenic. SWIM tried it 10/12/11 the night of their works Xmas Party; hoping to never have again, however personal possession and use is still legal.

07. Cocaine

SWIM’s love/hate relationship. Never been easy to avoid, but SWIM is doing well lately. Since SWIM fell hard into the love of white powders, they found coke to consume them. There was once a time SWIM was using this daily. Actually daily too, not even an exaggeration; SWIM spent £8,000 on it in a month. Seriously. SWIM is doing well at avoiding it lately; they slipped up 04/06/12 at a Jubliee Party, but prior to that, it’d been a good couple of months clear for SWIM. Trying with all their strength to avoid this fucker.

08. Mephedrone

This has been a substitute of sorts, SWIM has managed to body swerve cocaine on numerous occasions, by ending up on this. Most will know it as MCAT, a research chemical drug that peaked in popularity in the last couple of years due to it’s legality. It’s not as bad (see classification/price) but again SWIM is attempting to avoid in it’s entirety. SWIM had some of this as recently as 04/07/12 after a having their head fucked over the situation with the Mother of their unborn child. SWIM looks back disgusted the following day every time; SWIM guesses it’s just their coping mechanism after all the shit they’ve come through? But SWIM knows it’s now beyond the time to leave this in the past also and learn to deal with shit like an adult.

09. Cigarettes

Go figure. SWIM has managed to leave hard drugs behind, and yet cigarettes fuck them up. SWIM is now on their third attempt at quitting, but with more determination than ever before. SWIM has had no cigarettes since 06/07/12; they intend to keep it that way.

10. Facebook

This is SWIM’s most publicised addiction. If people know SWIM, people know SWIM lives on Facebook. SWIM used to document every aspect of their life; every bad decision, stupid choice, foolish error… now, in order to better themselves, SWIM is refraining from public eyes. SWIM deleted their profile 08/07/12. 

SWIM is a quitter; but ironically that is what will make SWIM a winner.

SWIM can be a better person.

SWIM will be.

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