People like to virtue signal, and have a laissez-faire courtship with male's mental health. Today I invite you to take a look at a real working example; myself.
Here is further clarity of where I'm at with my mental health for those of you who are interested. Some of you will likely recognise some/all of these things about me if you know me well enough.
This is a map of my self identified negative behaviour patterns, and how I reinforce, and succumb to additional feedback loops. The core issue aside from my irrational health anxiety is my abandonment issues and low self worth which are inherently linked.
I have a tendency to gravitate toward my negative traits and shame relating to my past (promiscuity/recreational drug abuse/debt/failing people I care about etc). I downplay my own value constantly and focus on what I don't have to offer, rather than what I do. This is coupled with a constant feeling that I am not "enough" and as a result, I believe that I am/always will be abandoned, overlooked or rejected.
As a result of this single deep rooted belief, a whole catalogue of negative behaviour patterns emerge that serve to reinforce and impact my life in many areas. This is what I am working through and why I am seeming erratic lately with my ramblings.
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